Bear

Idk what to do besides cry. I cant even have a moment to myself before other people feel hurt

I feel so helpless about everything in my life at this point. Like I want to save all the people in my life but i cant even get over this stupid dream that has been haunting me for days now

I hate that this stupid dream has affected almost all parts of me and I feel so stupid and helpless. Why am I still seeing it

I wish I had better coping habits.

I hate to break it to everyone but I was never a Grumbo or Scarian fan, I am still 150% a Taurian fan even though that ship is long dead 

I became #1 therapist I guess because 2 people are venting to me at the same time, one about relationship problems, the other about living. Idk what to do honestly and im hoping that i am helping

IM GONNA BE SICK I LEFT MY KEYS IN THE APARTMENT DOOR ALL NIGHT AND I DIDNT KNOW 
          
          
          luckily we live in a nice and safer place where we are all kinda just chill with each other but i feel so embarrassed like i already woke up hating myself and this just takes the cake. Luckily my roommate found it and gave it to me while being nice about it but oh my gosh

How do you know if paranoia is anxiety induced or part of a schizophrenic breakdown because i dont know if anything is real right now or if im just making things up in my brain

Update: my leg is all good (sorry I accidentally deleted a comment that I was trying to reply to, I can't even remember who commented but thanks for the concerns!) and it is feeling much better today. I was a bit worried about tetanus but its just a little scratched and bruised. I was luckily wearing 2 layers!
          
          
          
          Now onto relationship troubles (again). I needed time to cool off before I snapped so I didnt reply to her messages. I posted a story about my leg and my gf's friend replied to barate me about not replying. It made me more mad so I snapped at my gf a little bit because I felt it was unfair she was having her friends attack me when I was trying my hardest to keep it together. Another thing that has peaved me about this friend is that i came out to my gf in slight confidence (literally not by choice and scared out of my mind), she was fine with it and I told her not to tell. So, her best friend had some prophetic dream about me coming out to her (i dont even really know her) and just started calling me he/him for no reason. Instead of correcting her, my gf said that it was okay and I feel really pissed about it now because I feel like I was outed. I didnt tell her at the time because she thought I would think it was funny and good but I lowkey am so upset by it. What if other people know? What if it spreads? I didnt even want to tell my gf but I didnt want to lie

I talked with my best friend about my relationship and tried taking her advice but I screwed it up and now it feels so much worse and idk what to do besides cry.
          
          Also I accidentally hit a rusted broken metal pole with my leg and it hurts so much.