I_love_Polar_Bears
At the age of 20 I am having a midlife(?) crisis or a quarter crisis.... fantastic
I_love_Polar_Bears
I_love_Polar_Bears
Does anyone else just hate ship fics with a passion cuz I cannot stand reading them most of the time (unless it is written with it being a thing on the side and isnt all about it)
I_love_Polar_Bears
I started watching House and suddenly I am thinking I have a thyroid problem. It explains the tendonitis and depression (the patient with a thyroid problem had BOTH might I add) soooooo yeah
I_love_Polar_Bears
Happy belated Christmas (if you celebrate) and New Years! I have been busy (rotting in bed) and completely forgot to post anything.
I_love_Polar_Bears
Funny Storytime!
I offered to make mac and cheese (mistake 1) for my sibling because I wanted to be nice and I was hungry. So I boiled the water, put the noodles in and stirred. I stayed there and made sure it didnt stick together like last batches have. I was determined to make the best mac and cheese ever (I have never made good mac and cheese, let alone pasta).
I call my sibling over to double check the noodles because they look kinda weird. Turns out they were engorged or something and were over cooked. I don't know how that happened (mistake 2).
My sibling brings the pot to the sink for me to strain. I grab the strainer and proceed to drop a bottle of dish soap into the noodles (mistake 3). It wasn't discolored and it didnt smell like soap so we both assumed it was okay. The bottle partially melted and crumpled from the heat though.
We are both laughing/crying at this point so I finish the process up. It looks like a mess and I have no clue what I was doing. I might have put expired milk (mistake 4?) into it.
I dish out the mac and cheese and turns out, it didn't taste horrible. It tasted like one of the best mac and cheeses I have ever made. The texture was horrible but as my sibling said, just swallow and it is fine.
(Continued in the comments, also nausea and getting sick warning but it isnt graphic or anything)
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I joked during the entire process that it was poisoned in three ways; soap, melted plastic, and expired milk. Turns out, I wasn't far off.
I woke up the next day and feel nauseous and sick. I am like this for 3 hours, bouncing between sitting next to the toilet with a thing of Vicks to help wane the nauseouness off and in bed curled up. I tell my parents and my mom says I might be hungry. My stomach hates that idea. She then offers that it could be heartburn so she coaxes me downstairs to take medicine for it. I grab the bottle of chewy things for heartburn and walk into my parents room. They both are talking about me being sick and stuff, most likely not believing me. Luckily (not really), I turned around immediately and slam the bathroom door open and proceed to get sick. I proved them wrong.
My parents dont know how it happened (and im not entirely convinced it is) but it could be the poisoned mac and cheese.
I luckily feel better though, if not a little grossed out with a sore throat, but its kinda comical.
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I just learned about what Iskall had done and idk what to think.
He was legit my favorite hermit of all time and I adored watching his hermitcraft episodes. I was upset to see he hadn't posted but I didn't go looking for any information about it. He is one of 3 hermits I have watched for this recent season and I stopped watching every hermit when he stopped posting. Now, he is no longer a member of the server and everything associated with him has been deleted.
Its kind of soul crushing, you know? I truly believed he was a good person. Like, I had liked William Gold's music and series before but it was easy to detatch from it. I knew at heart he was horrible from the way he acted around others.
But Iskall?
It genuinely feels like a punch in the stomach right now. I have watched him since middle school and now I am in college. Genuinely feels soul crushing. I wrote so much about his character and I love all those fics and oneshots I have written. I hate that I am at a loss of what to do.
I am either considering deleting the fics or making it purposefully NOT the creator Viktor but Iskall the character. But at the same time it feels horrible for me to even keep them at all.
You just dont do that to people who trust you. Doesn't matter if they were adults or not. Its gross and disgusting.
Idk maybe im just dramatic.
I_love_Polar_Bears
And this is no way defending his actions. Viktor did that sh!t and he is so incredibly wrong for that. He doesn't deserve a second chance or to be with the elite minecrafters like the Hermits. I thought they were safe but this just proves that you can't trust sh!t on the internet. They can (and will) betray your trust.
I just hate that it was the person that created character Iskall.
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APPARENTLY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TEXTING MY MOM!?!?!?
Like we are literally in college now and they are ratting me out to her about being less than okay and she is asking for them to get me out of the house and idk what to do bruhhhhh
Cyansong
Well that sucks. I’m not in college yet, but my mom will literally go up to my friends and be like “you guys should hang out more. Cyan doesn’t leave the house much. He doesn’t hang out with people.” And it’s like- leave me alone!! Let me be socially awkward! And I bet it’s really awkward for the person I’m talking to when it happens
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Apparently around 5 different people have been asking my roommate about me because they have been concerned. Like apparently they have all been talking about me behind my back? Idk what they have said but they keep texting and my roommate does too. She wants to be open about everyone asking but it feels more like a strain. Like I thought I was covering it up well (besides only staying in the dorm for 4 or 5 nights out of 14) but they all saw through it??? I don't know how the conversations even start but it is stressing me out because what is my roommate telling people and what are they all saying? I don't want then worrying about me because I feel responsible in a way.
Idk what to do, ive been having at least 4 panic attacks (realistically, it would most likely be more than that, i feel like I have one for every hour I am awake) a day since a few days ago to the point I have been feeling incredibly sick. I must look awful or something for people to say that.
I thought my previous breakdown two weeks ago (wow thats a long time now) was the worst but I feel one creeping up slowly that is building and building. Ive never felt this horrible in my life. I sometimes just sit there feeling like I am dying but I have to clench my shirt and pretend like everything is okay.
I hate this so much.
I_love_Polar_Bears
Not me wanting to write about Jimmy (Solidarity) with a cane just because I've been needing to use one recently *skull emoji*. I like projecting a bit too much.
Sidenote, why doesnt wattpad allow emojis *crying emoji* it doesnt have the same feeling as emojis would have i have to use TAGS in order to get thr point across
Cyansong
It allows very few. Idk why but I think it’s because they hate us
Putting every heart, circle, and square emojis bc I know some of them work, just not which (❤️⚫️⚪️▪️▫️◾️◽️◼️◻️⬜️⬛️)
I_love_Polar_Bears
Guys, I dont think I failed!!!!! Yippee!!!!!
On the con side though, my foot feels like its gonna die, I took a 4 hr nap instead of doing homework, and still feel so exhausted
cutecat_forreal
@I_love_Polar_Bears no no no, expensive is never a good reason not to tell. First if anything wrong with your foot, it will cost a lot more later. And as a parent, I would say all parents want the health /wellbeing of their kids, no matter how expensive it can be. You are really sweet, but please tell your parents. I hope you get better. Sending hugs and love.
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@cutecat_forreal yeah, I have already done some treatment like wearing a brace and getting a shot in my foot but it seems to be progressing in the wrong direction. I would plan on telling them but I fear that whatever my foot will need is expensive or time consuming. I have been using a cane recently and it has lessened the pain.
cutecat_forreal
Looks like you got this paid for a while already. Maybe you really should see a doctor. At least call and tell them what had been going on.