another vent ig
i hate how I'm "friends" with everyone in my class, bc of that i don't belong in any group, there's the loud ones, the girls, the other girls who like yaoi and anime stuff, the annoying ones and the weird guy who uses his adhd and autism as an excuse for being disrespecful and to do nothing in class all day
all of the groups sit together at lunch, at p.e, in art class and i'm just there, when we have to form groups for a project everyone goes to their specific friend group and no one actually sits with me or calls me to join them
they only talk to me about smth if I talk to them first or if it's about the lesson which I hate bc I overthink too much and end up not talking to them at all, the thing is that they're all nice people (except the boys I hate them) I know they don't mean it but it hurts, one day literally NO ONE talked to me the whole day, only at lunch time when they realised I was crying bc of that
i used to sit ald talk with the loud ones more bc one of them I considered my best friend, I discovered later tham they have their own groupchat with the other girls and i realised that my "best friend" talked way more with this other girl than with me
i hate this, I hate how they have their own inside jokes, I hate how they do zoomcalls and sleepovers together everyday, I hate that none of them actually considers me a best friend, i hate the fact that none of them actually wants to talk to me everyday. I wish i just into a car crash,or that I needed to do some operation, or that i died while sleeping just anything to see who actually cares about me
I meet this cool girl at my school's halloween party tho, she recognized my miku cosplay and now i'm friends with her friends which is really cool bc we have lots of similar interests, but they're older than me and i'm pretty sure they're gonna go to college at some point and i'm gonna be alone again
i was gonna say more but my computer doesn't let me so that's it
sorry for any grammar mistakes