@IamBored_67
Hi I saw that you added my book Seven Tales Of Love to your reading list. Thank you so much.
I hope you enjoy the book❤️
@BMimija heyy!! Loved the theme and the cover of your book and wanted to try it!! Would love to read it <333
I think I'm finally making a friend at the coaching centre I go to daily! (I've taken an integrated course so I won't go to jr college in person)
i think it's been, what, 4 months since the course started? She mostly became my friend over our shared love of k-pop and kdramas (who says k-pop is not helpful in real life?) and so far, things with her are proceeding slowly but steadily. I'm starting to feel comfortable around her too, I think.
And I'm not sure how it happened, but two girls who sit around my bench have started becoming friendly with me! (Context is that no one used to speak to me before, and I used to speak to no one out of my own accord). One of them lightheartedly scolded me to swap places with her if my back hurts too much in my current seat (my seat doesn't have a backrest). Poor girl, I couldnt fathom that anyone would be worried about me so I didn't get what she was trying to say even after having her repeat it 3 times. I might have flustered her *screams and pulls hair*
The second one, who usually sits at my bench (our benches are long and can accommodate 5 people) sat in the bench in front of me one day. She asked me to join her ahead and internally I was so like sjsjsjs I love you kfdkdkssj thanks for asking but ended up telling her that I can't cuz the AC is strong on that bench (it's a legit reason of mine tho, i get sick easily)
@IamBored_67 i get what you're trying to say, but it's not just one-fits-for-all situation haha, i think in general people require social connections to survive in society, even if they don't emotionally require anyone
@Noe4Life_Fan I think what matters most is how we deal with being alone and having alot of frnds Many ppl tend to be alone most of the time so frnds arent imp But when u are emotionally unstable u just want atleast one person to understand you So yeah! Idk
thanks for listening to my rant
it was more in the spur of the moment
I should definitely try harder to improve myself ugh
@IamBored_67 the only time I rant to you about myself is when it's something negative lmao why would you even wanna hear those stuff I'll tell you little incidents instead haha
WHY AM I LIKE THIS
i dont know what to do
i need to come clean anyways when they see me not writing the exam in the living room
my parents never hit me over studying or anything so any studying I do is out of obligation to my parents, not cuz I'm being made to do so by force
so this is extra hella shameful for me
@IamBored_67 the problem is that I'm known as the "irresponsible and careless" sibling and this incident only solidifies that i try to keep improving and show that i am lesser careless than before, but shit like this happens and it's all back to square one
@Noe4Life_Fan it is understandable to be embarrassed but it really isnt a big deal U are just a child in ur parents eyes They dont have this perfect image of u So its alright
i want to cry
@IamBored_67 i still don't wanna cry in front of others haha, guess I'll do it somewhere alone instead of not doing it at all
@Noe4Life_Fan i am fully experienced in this thing dude I am telling u its not a good experience Till this date i dont follow my own advice and i pretend its just a really small thing and crying over it is soo immature and smthg abt how its so stupid to cry The onyl time i get to know that this IS a situation to cry on is when my hands and legs start shaking
they'll be SO fucking disappointed in me
@IamBored_67 so I talked to my mom she told me to learn from my mistake and my father thought I was joking for good whole 10 min
too embarrassed to even tell my parents
im so embarassed