xlittlerobotgirlx
Hey, I dont know if you remember me. It's Natalie. We were close a long time ago. I hope you're doing well. I think about you sometimes. I guess that's all, see ya
Ibtisamabdi
Ibtisamabdi
The darkness surrounds me
It's getting so cold
I'm all alone
With no one to hold
My world is so empty
All what's left is pain
No sunshine to light my way
Just never ending rain
I drown in tears
My heart is crying
No one seems to notice
My soul is dying
Ibtisamabdi
"I'm not scared of anything"
I wish my lie was true.
I don't want help,
"I don't need anything from you!"
I hate when I cry.
I hate when I'm scared.
My life is going by
I can't feel anything, anywhere.
I'm sad and depressed
I'm weak an abused.
I'm told I'm bad.
I just don't know what to do.
"I don't want your help"
But I don't want to cry.
"Leave me here"
"Just say good-bye!"
"So you're gone....?"
"Good riddance" I say!
I guess I'm going to cry for
Just one more day!
Ibtisamabdi
Walking through the rain,
I try to forget the pain.
I try to ignore the sting in my eyes,
because I know, a strong girl never cries.
I begin to run, run from my fears.
But I am followed by my ever present tears.
I want to leave these familiar places,
leave behind all of these frequent faces.
But where will I go?
What will I do?
All I know is I have to get far away from you.
But something keeps me here,
crying one last tear....
Ibtisamabdi
Hurt....pain....heart break.....fear sad to say I am used to it so I don't know the difference now they are all just some bad feeling u get
Ibtisamabdi
The things you did to me
Took away what made me free.
I was a prisoner to you, locked in a chain.
You played me, like a puzzle piece in a game.
It keeps me awake at night
Because in my mind I wonder why?
How could you do this to me?
All this pain and misery
You're ugly soul brought upon me.
How do you live with yourself?
Knowing that you changed my life for me,
Took the things I never had.
I want and need it back so bad.
Our relationship started from something minor,
From there to something worse.
Things I thought I was imagining
Became a haunting and memorable curse.
Not only did you take my childhood,
You took my life.
Turned me around, and slit me with a knife.
I never thought this would happen to me,
But it did.
I'll never forget,
I'll never forgive.
And all this pain I went through
Was just because I trusted you.
You stole my voice,
I had NO choice.
You took advantage of me,
Took control of my whole body.
And yet I stand strong, to this day.
My hate for you will never fade.
The battle is over, it hasn't just begun.
Now it's the end...I'm the girl still standing..
I'M THE GIRL WHO WON!!
Ibtisamabdi
I take away beauty
I take away lives
I tear apart families
You'll live in my lies
You'll cover me up,
with sleeves
I'll isolate you-
or at least that's what it seems
you'll feel so deserted
you'll feel so alone
I'll drive you insane
I'll make you feel numb
yet my pain you just can't get enough of
the pleasure the pain
the release that you feel
maybe you'll need stitches
just so "it" will heal
the more you use me
the deeper you slide in
the more blood you see;
the deeper your drawing begins
I'll help you draw the lines
I'll help you pain stars
and the more you abuse me
the more I'll leave scars
but if I cause you death
you blame me
you took me in hand
this I know you can see
I'm caused by depression
Mr. Razor's my name
you can try to cover me up
but I'll still leave an emotional stain
so don't dare forget me
remember my name
you'll be thinking it later
as you cry out in pain
Ibtisamabdi
We all have a friend
Who's silver and shines
It pierces our skin
And draws the red lines
It leaves several scars
Over the years
But it lets out our screams
As well as our fears
It gives us relief
We need the sensation
But we keep it a secret
We hate the attention
Those perfect red lines
They become such a burden
But we do it anyway
Because we're tired of hurting
Some call us psycho
But we know they're all wrong
They all know what to be
We don't know where we belong
We hide the scars
Under jackets and sleeves
Our loved ones don't know
The cuts stay unseen
We try to act fine
So no one'll know
But sometimes we slip
And the cracks begin to show
Ibtisamabdi
@XxUndesirablexX you said losing me twice was the on purpose or accidentally
Ibtisamabdi
I’ve been hated and discriminated against.
I’ve been almost-strangled by a friend.
I’ve been told that I’ve got a disease
because of who I am.
I’ve been yelled at and screamed at
And asked questions by strangers.
I’ve been given hell for loving a girl.
I tried to hide but they always found me.
All I did was fall in love...
But They’re ruining lives
and making kids commit suicide.
And I’m the bad guy?
Are you sure about that?
“It’s oaky to be gay,”
easy for you to say.
You’ve never been hated.
You’ve never been scared...