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Tw: Body shaming and slurs
          
          ||So when I was doomscrolling, I found this Alien Stage server. And I was so excited to be apart of it. Sadly, I left after a week or so. Why? Well, I had anonymously confessed that I didn't like that my friend in that server was being bullied. Even if my friend was okay with it. And then I spoke out about how I didn't like how people kept body shaming my friend because that made me feel unsafe around these people. A few hours later someone anonymously confesses that they hated the fact that whoever was complaining about my friend being bullies needs to be quiet because said person was being way too dramatic. I'm said person, and that made me sl uncomfortable I had to announce I needed a break and then I left.||
          
          ||Now, this sever is a semi toxic server. So jokes will come out. Like being called a fatass or a f@g or a wh0r3 or even a $lut. I don't care about any of that. That's fine with me. What made me uncomfortable was that a lot of people were fat shaming my friend and telling him to lose weight. He has an ED because of his weight, so I thiugh that was very disrespectful to him.||
          
          ||Now that I left that server, my friends from that server have been questioning me and telling me that I was in the right for wanting to not associate with a server like that. I am friends with the owner, so I think they might have made a really big announcement about it. I don't know if they did or not. I don't know if my friends spoke out about it. But I want to go back into the server. And I don't want body shaming jokes. I want us to call each other slurs and be silly. Not call each other fat and to lose weight.||

Everything is getting harder and I feel like I can't breathe.
          Everything reminds me of you.
          But I can't just delete you out of my life.
          It must've been hard telling me that.
          Because now I feel like every breath I take is trying to kill me.
          And you probably feel like shit because of what you said.
          And I feel like shit because of what I did.
          You should've told me it wasn't fine.
          I should've stopped myself from being who I was with you.
          You must've suffered a lot.
          Especially trying to tell me how you felt.
          I'm sorry that I made anyone feel that way.
          I'm sorry I never changed.
          I promise I was trying to be good.
          But I failed.
          And now I've lost you.
          I might have lost you forever.
          I might have lost you for a bit.
          Tell me all about how you hate my guts,
          And I'll listen.
          Tell me about how you felt weird being friends with me,
          And I'll stop everything I'm doing.
          If you told me that you didn't like how my heart beat.
          Then I'd stop it for you.
          But you find that weird,
          Right?
          Because I'm not longer the Akio you once knew.
          You saw what I could do, 
          And now you're afraid.
          It's okay.
          I'll stop.
          I'll go away.
          I won't bother you.
          You don't have to be afraid anymore..

Guess who got Mortenax on their first pull on his banner.

I love you guys so so so so so so so so SOOOOOOO much. Please read my stories. (｡ŏ﹏ŏ)

I'm good y'all. But... ICE has now ruined my whole year.

hey ako i wanna say im so thankful for u and every thing u have helped me with and i know its late but i wanted to apologies for being such a shitty person and for the way i treated u and i know it wont fix any thing but im so sorry

hiiii akio How are you sorry about the breakup I know that you two were perfect I thought you two would actually get married one day and if you need to talk or want to hug hell if you need someone to call I can give you my new number I'm getting a new phone cuz my parents because I got my other one taken away but you can always call me and I'm so sorry that it happened

Mama's okay, baby... You just don't have a daddy anymore
          
          -Akio

I don't know how to describe it. But it's like the light in mama's eyes died after reading that message.
          
          -Samuel

... I wish my boyfriend showed me more affection...