I just read your update on your thoughts, now I'm not a professional by far, but i may be the closest thing you have to one and I'll be here to help you just like I always have been and will continue to be. it doesn't matter to me I'll be here to help you and even if you don't want help I'll be here for you as you need someone by your side to help you and if possible I will help you with that. so if you want to talk to someone you can talk to me and I'll help you where I can