Meg

Ughhhh my friend is doing too much
          She’s trying to convince me to audition for Frozen w her so we can hangout (I’ve been second guessing if I should do it cause of multiple reasons) 
          And she even offered to drive me the entire time (don’t get me wrong, I’m beyond grateful to her, I just feel so bad inconveniencing herrr)

When someone tries to give me advice on something I said I was praying about, but they’re lowkey lukewarm (no judgement, I just don’t want advice from them)

My sister just said that when she walked into to church it’s like God was pointing out a guy to her and was like “yep that’s your future husband” and then he got a gf (but they broke up now) 
          how do I tell her that the exact same thing happened (different guy) to me but she had a crush on him for a bit…
          Like wdym? He even got a gf now… (although ngl I don’t think it’ll last and I’m saying this as someone who currently has zero feelings for him)

I was about to yap about how idk what I feel and I got distracted and when I came back it deleted my writing…probably for the better tbh

heyy it's been forever and i know we don't talk much but how are you doing?

My biggest worry (aside from disappointing God and whatnot) is that my male friends that I have absolutely no romantic interest in are the ones that have romantic interest in me, despite having no history of guys having serious crushes on me. But like some of yall been acting weird lately. 
          
          I will now yap about this
          
          The other day one was just pacing back and forth near me (this isn’t really a friend more of an acquaintance otherwise I may have asked) and kept glancing at me before just walking away. And I think he’s too young for me anyways and even if he’s not, he gives me the ick a lottt and just- ew. 
          
          Another is just like extra nice to me and idk if it’s cause he’s just extra nice or if I’m just nicer to him then people in our friend group or if feelings are involved. There’s nothing wrong with him, his personality doesn’t really bother me even though it bothers many people. But he smells bad sometimes and he’s a lot and I just don’t like him as anything but a friend at all. 
          
          The other one that I was actually worried about before, my brother scared away. And he didn’t do anything he’s just one of those guys that likes any girl that looks at him and claims that a girl being his friend is leading him on.

When I trauma dump just to say something and then people start apologizing and stuff but that wasn’t my intention bc I literally don’t know how to react when people apologize for something they didn’t do.

When I’m talking about my friend and then realize that I’m talking about a man (as a straight girl) so my family is legally obligated to accuse me of being in love with him whether any of us likes it or not so I just shut up-

Not to brag, but I had a dream where I was Milo Manheim’s romantic interest (this is probably because in my head he’s who’s playing the love interest in the book I might be writing)

I’m still learning that not everyone is worth arguing with. Some people just aren’t at a time in their life where they’re gonna hear me, and some never will be. 
          
          I feel like I knew this before but since I started following God I have the urge to tell everyone about him, and how wrong so many people have it, and it’s just not gonna work the way I want it too.