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@Iheartmylittlepony4 hey hey, I'm sorry I was in class are you ok

I'm this close to using THe number  but I'm scared I dnot wanna God pls someone help

@authoriris7 yea sorry i really wanna but idk how i get that shes happy for her relationship and my other friends afre doing great and im so happy for them but idk it hurts so much and she just keeps bragging and talking abt it and i have to tolerate it all cus im trynna be there and be a great friend but idk cus i feel shitty and when shes like that everydya it takes me to a bad place that i have trouble leaving and i stay there a while until i do what i do if u know what i mena and thats when it physically hurts and shit but i cant stop i dont know how its all i have left it got way worse yesterday when i almost lost it in front of them all and i was crying and then smiling and gigling a bit then i was throwing pencils trying to calm down and she told me i was bipolar and i know i probably have fucked up shit like that but idk why theyre so rude abt it or not as open minded and its bad enough my parents are too and im tired of hiding and being brooken like this they make it seem im like a messed up monster a fucked up bitch that they just use and im so sick of it im not just like this this isnt me but no one can see it no one knows and i cant fucking explain i dont know anymore im so tired of it but i cant just quit i wont but i really wanna and it sucks its so much and my parents are getting sick my little sisters acting like a brat and school sucks and nothing helps i dont wanna be a problem but i cant its just to much :(

@Iheartmylittlepony4 they aren't ur real friends if they can't be there for you girl. Ur not fucked up ur going through something difficult and ur processing it. Everyone handles things in a different manner and that's okay so is not being okay. I promise you things will start to look up not tomorrow or right away but soon just hold out for hope and rant to me if u ever need to 

@Rodimus-the-Flame thanks man its needed * le sigh*

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX okie dokie man sorry heh Im in art rn and its with the professor and shes strict but I'ma try :) * salute*

@Iheartmylittlepony4 
            
            reason on mb (again)

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX eh same thing here man excruciating pain in my leg rn and it burns but I'm used to it :)
            what abt u? why u in pain??

@Iheartmylittlepony4 what's going on? Are you ok? What happened?!

@Iheartmylittlepony4 discord kosmic_collie

@Iheartmylittlepony4 hiii what's going on?? Sometimes you just need to have a really good cry or take a walk just to help u relax. Sorry I can't be of much help but pls don't turn to something you'll regret 

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX aye aye man * salute*

@Iheartmylittlepony4 
            
            reason on my mb

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX aw sorry man feel better soon 
            can I ask why tho??

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX  yea but I just don't want to abondon all y'all on here u don't deserve it :/

@Iheartmylittlepony4 
            
            do what feels right man..

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX * le sigh* I think I'ma quit Wattpad to but forever until I'm out of school or at least until I'm better man cus.... the constant shit just makes me feel even worse like somethings wrong with me and these bloody notifications don't help even if that's what they think I just fucking can't I'm not like that but people don get it they never do and I fucking hate it all I HATE it so much I just wanna cry but I wanna be happy but i cant idk how or what to do anymore

@Iheartmylittlepony4 i get it, I am like that too, I can't find the words to explain How I feel so people don't understand

@Pan_Bish5000  yea I know but idk everything isn't good all the signs I'm getting are just making it worse and nothing helps  I talk and talk but no one understands even if they actually listen and I just cant people have enough as is but I don't wanna be like this I'm not crazy I'm not weird I'm just hurting why don't people get that :l

@Iheartmylittlepony4 I get it but sometimes even if you feel you can't, just talking, not even about your issues can help

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX sorry man wish I could take that pain but I hope ya feel better soon :/

@Iheartmylittlepony4 
            
            not really

@Xx-5h4d0w_Dw3ll3r-xX oof sorry to hear that man I wish it weren't that bad :( 
            anything I can do??

@Iheartmylittlepony4 :( oh no

@Pan_Bish5000 well yea its basically the same thing tho if I'm honest and I don't like it at all it sucks and tbh the kids aren't as smart and even if common sense isnt that obvious its less  plus  oh well no ones that perfect but it gets old I know so much shit and it sucks tony stank and Thanos literally aren't the few cursed  with knowledge :/

@Iheartmylittlepony4 oh damn, i am just a basic sophomore rn