Ilovesharksteehee

Hey gng my ahh wanted to let y'all know I'm still alive
          	
          	Anyways
          	
          	I'll be pausing souriez simplement for a while to work on my block tales oneshots cuz ppl like block tales more than my original sooo.....
          	
          	The reason why I'm taking so long on the frozenhero episode on my block tales one shots is cuz it's gonna be like... 3-9k words long and im not a no-life anymore
          	
          	Peace out imma drown in schoolwork for the next 67 years

Ilovesharksteehee

Hey gng my ahh wanted to let y'all know I'm still alive
          
          Anyways
          
          I'll be pausing souriez simplement for a while to work on my block tales oneshots cuz ppl like block tales more than my original sooo.....
          
          The reason why I'm taking so long on the frozenhero episode on my block tales one shots is cuz it's gonna be like... 3-9k words long and im not a no-life anymore
          
          Peace out imma drown in schoolwork for the next 67 years

loveuYN

Hey, sweets, haven't heard from you in a bit. 
          
          You doing okay? Sending you tons of love!!

Ilovesharksteehee

@loveuYN  been better,my last figurative child just disowned himself and because I've built such a large persona of being the fool everyone needs to feel better,I got really hurt by his words
            
            I understood why he didn't want to be my child anymore,i would never stop him,it was his choice sure,but it still hurt
            
            Creating a whole personality based on the job of a funny friend was half my life's purpose,to be comfort,but he just technically told me "I don't need you anymore,please leave me alone" even though he knew I treasured him as a friend deeply,since if im no one to him then who am i to myself because my own pov is based on everyone else's? I was just beginning to actually heal from my 4th severe depression era too.
            
            Other then that,I'm doing okay at least is all you need to really know,so thank you for caring!!
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R7mbl0_R0b0t1cs

Hio, saw you vote for one of my books, just wanna say.
          
          You sit and ponder if those who care about you really exist, yet one has always seemed to stick. It is you my dear, your greatest lend, a silly yet thoughtful, amazing friend
          
          Whilst now you don't think so, soon you will see. You were made, not to exist for me. But to exist for thee, thyself.
          
          Good night, —rumblo.

Ilovesharksteehee

@R7mbl0_R0b0t1cs  giggling and kicking my feet in the air
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Ilovesharksteehee

Happy birthday to me ig. 
          
          I hate it. 
          
          I hate being wished fake words. 
          
          I hate talking with family. 
          
          I hate being given hugs in every asked for and didn't need. 
          
          I hate the fact none of my biological family members aren't even genuinely happy for me. 
          
          I hate people. 
          
          Why can't I be an alien. 
          
          At least life would be fair if i was. 
          
          I hate my birthday. 
          
          I hate being alive. 
          
          I hate my biological family more then I can hate myself,and that's an achievement by itself. 
          
          
          If I see anyone in my family crying for me,I'll just smile and say thank you,because they never taught me real empathy. 
          
          I only ever learned emotions from the people I trusted. 
          
          And of course,most of them are liars too. 
          
          I hate liars. 
          
          I hate when I'm ignored. 
          
          I hate being me. 
          
          Why can't I be someone else. 
          
          
          I hate my mom. 
          I hate my biological mother. 
          
          I hate her.
          
          I NEVER ASKED TO BE REPLACED MORE THEN ONCE. 
          
          I NEVER ASKED TO BE DISMISSED WHENEVER I TRIED BONDING.
          
          I NEVER ASKED TO BE YELLED AT FOR BEING CONFUSED. 
          
          I NEVER ASKED TO HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS WITH ME. 
          
          I NEVER ASKED TO BE BORN. 
          
          I NEVER ASKED FOR FAKED SYMPATHY. I NEVER NEEDED IT,CONSIDERING IT CAME FROM HER. 
          
          I JUST..... 
          
          
          I just wanted to show her how much I love her. 
          
          But I can't do that when both me and her are pushing each other away,can't I? 
          
          No one Im uncomfortable with won't stop invading my space. They refuse to understand. 
          
          They just won't leave me alone.

Ilovesharksteehee

@loveuYN Thank you,though I know I'm HELLA LATE for this reply
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loveuYN

@Ilovesharksteehee 
            Love, I'm happy you're alive and here. <3
            Happy 14th birthday and things will get brighter as life goes on, trust me, babes. Just know you have a few years left and you can leave it. <3 You're not alone in feeling all this, I promise. 
            Sending all my love to you, babes. Happy birthday. <3
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Ilovesharksteehee

Little reminder my family has been like this for as far as I could remember,and I'm 14 now.
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Ilovesharksteehee

Yoo I'm still alive chat trust
          
          Mind if y'all check out my new story:V? Just testing out some old writer skills from when I was like 6-11 I got from writing my delusions so much on oc lore
          
          Idk if it'll even be seen tho since it's basically it's own hashtag AND it's own category
          
          Leave some opinions on this message for me to read later cuz I'm not very active on wattpad
          
          Anyways peace I'm off to sleep for another 69 years

S1llySerxph

I love your username! Sharks are amazing! <3

Ilovesharksteehee

@I_Have_Writing_Ideas Ty:DD
            I RLLY like sharks cuz they often get misunderstood and can't even explain themselves cuz they're a shark,which relates to me in some way:33
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