ImDepressedGay

Hey Im back and ig no one cares. I'm in a bad position and m on a bid suicidal risk ^^"
          have a nice day

I'm looking for trouble, that's a lie my Freind made me do it so fuck u all I hate this world good bye have a nice day 

Guess who's here!
          
          It's me and I'm back....
          
          I though I might feel a bit better afther a time out iny life. But I'm in a even worse condition. But I'm all okay
          
          So ig I will start writing again and I will try to write more stories 

have you ever gone insane ?
          Well I have and it sucks...
          Idk how it started but all I know is that at first you will get nightmares about something you gone insane about. For exaple let's go to my situation ......
          I have nightmares about people dieing and demons talking to me. Then irl when I look at a person my head starts to talk crazy.
          " hey imagine if that person would rip his head of at the middle of the road and then cars would crash his whole body" 
          and afther my head gives me thease things my imagination goes crazy to. It makes me see how it would happen in my imagination. and that head riping is not  the worse i imagined.
          
          and that's not all that happens.
          
          This just pisses me of so much I want to end this pain for ever. 
          I mean if you die. You don't feel pain, emotions. Just nothing.....
          
          But i dont want to die.....
          I have no good reason to die . And i dont want to leave the people i love .
          
          my head is just messing with me again.
          
          but anyway 
          did any of you gone insane or somthing like that

I'm dienig in here.
          
          I think you all know that "Sk8 to infinity" is out now. And I'm dienig.....
          
          This anime is bringing me motivation for skating again. And it showed me a few things my head didn't saw in my life.
          
          I mean I was skating with 2 and a half years  with "oldschool skateboard" and lats year I bought a longboard "cruzer". But bc of Corona I couldn't skate and my mom doesn't let me skate at home and the good roads are pretty far away so that killed my love for skateboards but it was not the end. Thx to "SK8 to infinity "  I remembered how good it feels to skate and now im skating again.
          
          
          

should i continue writing "coffee maniac"?
          
          it makes my kinda happy when i write it, but idk if i should continue. My friend says " are you crazy. your writing a klance fanficion. Oh you will just disappoint your self and it will be embarrassing, plus stop with klance ship. its wierd".
          yeah she makes me mad, but she helps a lot. i actually didn't gave a fuck about what she said but my brain was like :
          
          " you know what. over think this shit" 

my friends crying, screaming and are scared to hell while watching horror movies, while im the only one laughing, mankind jokes or looking really exited bc i know that tgere will be lots of blood and guts.
          
          what is your favorite movie or movies gender. 

my brother asked my how im still aline in this worl
          me:
          i ask my slef the same thing :))))