My friend died from cancer earlier this week and i had to find out with my whole yr group and like for some reason everything feels weirdly fake and I can't wrap my head around the fact that he litterally only feels like a memorey now and i never even got to visit him in hospital before he passed with I'll forever feel guilty for and it's like hes not even dead i mean i don't think many people knew we were friends so its mostly his close friend getting support which idrw anyway bc I wouldn't know what to do with it it's just that other than that it feels like he was never even here, i mean barely anyones mentioning it even our friends and its only been a week and idw annoy people bc I can't shut up but it just feels so weird knowing that my friend died and the worlds still moving perfectly normal and it's like is this what it would be like if i died, like would everyon seem to move on after a couple days?
