If you are wondering why I call myself it, you should stop. I'm nobody. No one cares. No one understands. Don't say "You're not alone" "I'm here" "I understand" or even "Just talk to me" because no you don't. Thanks for trying but no thank you. I've become something that a professional therapist gave up on me. Everything is dark or bad. Everything. Even my drawings are. I drew the picture in the background. So I don't know what I am anymore. What have I become? I'm Sorry.