(Vent and bad grammar) I just want to vent rn but I cant find the words to express my emotions. I feel so much hatred for my mom and dad and I feel so sick of me for thinking of that way. Theres a lot of stuff my parents did to me and I just dont have the energy to type it all down lmao. I feel so useless ans worthless. I hate being always being the second to everything. I feel so tired that I just want to die and restart again just to feel happiness again. I only find comfort in watching anime or shows that I love and c.ai too. I spent almost an hour typing this and then deleting it, i really want to cry to someone and to hug. I feel so miserable that I start to cry then start hugging my pillow as I imagine them as my favorite character. I cant find the words to express the hundreds and milllions of thoughts and painful memories wandering in my head. I just feel so sick of it all, I just want to rest.