@Imissmykitten
Why am i so fucking sensitive today? It seems like even the slightest raise in someones voice and im gonna burst into tears.
If anyone is awake I kinda need to talk. If not then that's fine.
Haven't been on in awhile. Sorry about that. Been busy getting fucked over by the school. At a new school now. Apparently an " Alternative school". I guess my attendance wasn't good enough or some shit. I'm sick of trying to please other people. I'm done.
Hey peoples. Holding and praying that my mom will let me go to Sakuracon. Can't wait.
Hey peoples. Holding and praying that my mom will let me go to Sakuracon. Can't wait.
I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middle finger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm more than just a picture
I'm a daughter and a sister
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a rumor
Or a song on your computer
There's more to me than people know
Some days I'm broke, some days I'm rich
Some days I'm nice, some days I can be a bitch
Some days I'm strong, some days I quit
I don't let it show, but I've been through some shit
I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm more than just a number
I'm a hater, I'm a lover
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a title
Or a comment going viral
There's more to me than people know
Some days I'm broke, some days I'm rich
Some days I'm nice, some days I can be a bitch
Some days I'm strong, some days I quit
I don't let it show, but I've been through some shit
I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm not just a pretty girl, yeah
I'm not just a pretty girl
No I'm not just a pretty girl
I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world
Fuck your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm not just a pretty girl, yeah
I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm not just a pretty girl
At my dads for two weeks. boring here. miss you love.
Life is crappy
We all know that
but most people fake a smile
and try to slip through it.
Why can’t I do that?
I draw to much attention to myself.
I’m to loud
I’m to big
I’m to stupid to hide.
The voices in my head have to leave.
I’m getting better
The voices are quieter.
All I hear is Go Go Go.
Stay Stay Stay.
I’m stuck in one place
not sure where to turn
i’m in my head all blank
Trapped.
No doors
No windows
I’m Trapped.
The cage is small and cramped.
That’s life.
Trying to be accepted
I’m done.
I have broken the box.
I will not be put in a box or I will bite
I will not be changed or I willl kick and scream.
I’m not Trapped. Not anymore.
The instructor said to let the words flow onto the page.
How?
All my words have been used up.
Screaming for help when no one’s listening.
Bruises and cuts I can’t control,
The normals pushing me out the the door.
“ Be who you want to be not who you are.”
I guess who I am isn’t good enough.
Being sad is hard yes but depression is harder.
Hiding behind a mask
To afraid to show my true self.
The mask is temporary.
Every once in awhile it breaks letting my demons free.
I like being normal but i can’t.
I’m helpless and unsafe by myself.
My throat is hoarse my eyes are wet
Everyone no need to fret
Everything is fine.
I know what I would leave behind.
I don’t need help
I don’t need saving.
I’ve fixed everything.
My voice is loud, I am strong.
I am my own savior and I found more words in my soul.
I hope this can help people going through hard times.
I don't get people at my school. Just because I hug my best friend a lot they think i'm dating him. Why do i have to be dating them whenever I hug the opposite gender. DOn't they know I'm taken by an angel?