I don't know if I should wish to turn back the time. It was one of the best days.. and worst of all.
The thing is, after those backstabbing, lies, leaving without a word and all. I wonder, instead of being angry, why am I hurt?
I waited for you, you know.
Waited for your return.
Until, my heart and soul become dumb,
and my eyes can no longer shed a tear.
Have you realize how you scarred my being?
And then, I feel dead inside. So dead. Like, when our child cries in front of me, I watch her.
I watch her crying while searching my heart if there's still love left in me.
I was hoping. Hoping for , even the slightest faint of heartbeat. If I'm still alive. If I can live. If I can love.
There was none.
And then, it hits me!
I should not stop my world just because you weren't here. You don't hold my life. Our child is my lifeline and not you.
So, i searched. I learned. I prayed and hoped. Until one moment, I felt a tear escaped as I watch her sleep.
A faint beat starts.
