shani

happy birthday shani love!
          sorry for the late message, ive been thinking about you all day but been super busy!
          
          have the bestest birthday ever! i really really hope you're happy ♡

happy birthday love ❤️
          have a great great day! xoxo

for shani (dw this one's for you!)
          
          life is shit sometimes and i could literally be a bot. but i want you to know that no matter what happens you always have someone to all back on! we may be total strangers, hell i could be 70 year old man but i believe in you! not just because im being nice but because you've made it this far and you can definitely go further. you have people that love you and feel happy to see you happy. so make yourself happy. work is never a burden. it's something that's a part of life. think of the bad parts as preparing for the good parts to feel even better. aight bye, my english retarded.

school has been such a drag, i hate it online but at the same time i don't wanna go back in either. my english teacher expects us to do a mf test in my sweet ass half term break as well.
          
          im actually totally regretting some of my alevels right now loool

well, everything happens for a reason and im sure it'll work itself out.
          
          my day? very fucking slow. i meant to do some work but i've got awhile to submit it so i'll just be doing it later on in the week. ive slept almost all day cause i couldn't sleep at night, then i worked out while watching tv. fairly normal and boring. 
          
          there's not really much to say for me :)
          lockdown has made everything boring asl for me

wow im kinda surprised you haven't forgotten about me, my bar for ppl is pretty low loooool 
          
          girlfriend??? im so happy for you! is it the same person you told me about before? im glad you're happy in that aspect
          
          did you not have unis picked out before? we have to write ucas personal statements so we usually have unis picked out pretty early on (i have mine picked out). are majority of your picks domestic? regardless of where you go, you'll be the best and do great. does the one in amsterdam offer like a specialist course for midwifery? or is it just a preference to go abroad? have you been given an offer for a uni here yet?
          
          im sorry it's stressing you, but once you get it out of the way, it'll be worth it.
          
          also the scene in amsterdam is seriously amazing. ive been there before so that's a real good pick of places to go for uni and to live. do you perhaps speak dutch?
          
          im glad to be talking to you again too :)

hey shani
          
          i know it's been forever. im sorry i haven't sent you any messages in a while to check up on you, it's been crazy times? i hope you're doing okay, i haven't forgotten about you. probably couldn't if i tried. fuck, imagine how awkward this would be if you've forgotten about me.
          
          i really really miss talking to you so i hope you see this message.  :/
          
          the love hasn't changed, i love you all the same and wish you the best xoxoxo

i love you just as much my best girl ♥️

shan babyyy
          hope you're doing well love xoxo

i love you too