this message may be offensive
You know what since I don’t feel like everyone really knows what went down/what I’m going through, I’ll pour it all here.
I’m at families, they don’t let me on my phone much, I’m tired, I’m exhausted, I’m always doing something because guess what this is family (even though they aren’t my family <3 ). I almost faded in the mind (alter speak for almost ceased to exist) and I’m just tired. If it says anything it was so bad I almost cried today in public because I was overwhelmed, stressed, exhausted, sick, and had an extreme headache to the point that I needed to not be able to hear anything. You can not put expectations on me in this situation/time frame because everything is going hay-wire. Schools almost about to start too, so imagine the stress on me. I’m going to repeat myself: putting expectations on me to be a certain way or do a certain thing right now when I’m really fucking distracted with trying to please my family and get them off my ass just makes shit worse for me. And please don’t be passive aggressive/aggressively mad at me because yes I get it but indirectly hinting that it’s me without actually saying it/talking to my face about it hurts. Please give me time to cope and I’ll respond when I can remember. I really hate saying this but I’m developing amnesia to when my alters front, I’m not always going to know you texted me if they read it. (Not directed at anyone here, it’s in part directed at my system)