𝕸𝖔𝖓𝖔 {𝓜𝓮𝓲}

Being high-maintenance sucks and is so so stupid lol. Smh. 
          
          Maybe it was a mistake, to wish to be wanted. Maybe I shouldn’t have yearned. But eh. No one REALLY cares. 
          
          Ugh this is so stupid. I do t wanna do this again. Don’t wanna do it to myself. Don’t wanna do it to anyone else. Hasn’t there been enough hurt? 
          
          I’m dumb for this. So fucking dumb. I’m- I’m gonna regret this. It’s gonna come back and bite me hard, and not in the sexy way. I don’t wanna do this. 
          
          But hey, fuck it? I guess? We’ll see where this goes. 

Happy V-Day guys! Or SAD, if you’re single. Remember to hydrate. And all that good stuff!

Why am I so goddamn bitter? lol 
          
          Nah I would- I woulda been FINE. 
          BUT NOW I GOTTA START SHIT HYUK HYUK HYUK. 
          
          Maybe I’m not cut out to be nice :3

I miss being happy, even if I was deluding myself. 
          
          Whelp, time to re-read Infatuation. 

Update: Played choosing the options that were the most Me and got the bad end <33 
          
          I keep getting proven right lolol. I’d be sadder, but it’s expected. 
          
          Now, how do I get the good end…..

Dating Sims aside, I genuinely cannot comprehend someone liking me. 
          
          Like, platonically? Yeah sure okay. As a person? Lord help you but yeah sure. Unhealthy obsession because I’m bad at feelings and good with words? It’s plausible. But ROMANTICALLY?? 
          
          Like, not just “lemmie smash >:3”? Not just for my *appearance*? But ME? 
          
          As in, all of me? My personality, my quirks, my weirdness and general instability? No fuckn’ way. I don’t think so. I’m flawed, imperfect; perfection is impossible though. 
          
          I don’t… understand why anyone ever would like- *like-like* me, Y’know? I get platonically, for the most part. But I just… 
          
          I don’t think that’s like, possible. Especially not someone I like, or consider hot. Like, seriously. 
          
          I don’t know what my partner saw in me back in the day when they agreed to date me, but maybe they’ve opened their eyes which is why they’re… as they are. 
          Maybe that’s why I like yanderes so much…? I crave undeniable, unconditional love? 
          
          Meh, whatever. Grim (A Date With Death) is hella cute and I love him <333 
          [maycontinuethisinthatnewbookimmapublishbutfornowbaiiiii] 
          
          ANYWAY,, HYDRATE POOKIES. AND DONT LET CREEPS GET YOU DOWN. ITS *YOUR* DAY, SO DON’T LET ANYONE RUIN IT. 
          RUIN IT Y O U R S E L F . /j
          BYYYEEEEE✨✨✨✨

HEY POOKIES. Not me, crawling back to wattpad </3 
          
          I’m prolly gonna get back to posting/publishing lmao. Otherwise hope everyone is enjoying their new year-! 

I missed COTL damn…

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HOPE YOU HAVE GOOD NEW YEAR-! YEAAAA

Me: :( 
          Inspo: *smacks me in the face with a metal tray* 
          Me: ;w;… 
          Me: O.O—!! 
          
          That’s to say, WERE BACK IN ACTION BOIIIIII