I've  had and interest and appreciation for Anime Film and Art since childhood; as well as storytelling, creative writing and poetry. I even have a published poem!  I recently have become aware that I have been ignoring myself. This realization comes at the end of a cycle in my life that will allow me to begin a new cycle  of self-discovery, fulfillment and  use my life to make a positive impact.

Just now with the rise of the internet I have found a new world of  entertainment that morphs RPG'ing and gaming and writing online! My children are teens and I have recently become unemployed and had to have a hysterectomy. With that came more time for me  and I'm realizing I have ignored my own needs to suppress traumatic memories of childhood sexual abuse as well as the emotional pain. The experience of remembering has turned my world, sanity, and reality upside down

Oddly enough I am a very spiritual, sexual person but its only now that I'm allowing myself to experience the enjoyment of pleasure without guilt or shame. In my youth I would RP scenarios with random people when opportunity presented itself. (In class, at a wedding after party in Kirkland Lake..etc.) As a child, I found the old dirty MAD Magazines in the attic on my Aunt Betty's farm, and my best friend and I would draw comics of that nature on our sleepovers. 

I have recently come across the anime-rpg-writing and drawing community on twitter and wattpad.(My daughter has been trying to get me on here for a long time-she's so smart and knows me better than I thought) I so badly want to participate in some events but I don't know how to make a character or what head cannon'ing is or understand any of the lingo. PLEASE HELP ME with any useful links or personal message to discuss how I can start? I feel overwhelmed! Many Pre-Thanks! Looking forward to making new friends!!!