Hey... I just want to say I read your post and it really hit me hard. I don’t know you personally, but your words spoke so deeply to me that I couldn’t scroll past without saying something. I can feel your pain through every line, and it breaks my heart to know someone as thoughtful and expressive as you is feeling so lost and hurt. You're not being dramatic or weak — you're just overwhelmed, and that’s completely okay.
Marriage isn't just a tradition — for many, it's a huge emotional shift. And for someone who has grown up with fear, pain, and trauma tied to men or relationships, it's understandable that the idea feels terrifying. You’ve been fed fear since childhood, and now they expect you to embrace what scares you most? That’s not fair. You have every right to say no, to feel scared, and to want peace. You deserve peace.
Your writing, even in pain, is powerful. So raw, so honest — and honestly, it’s one of the realest things I’ve read in a while. I know you said you can’t write anymore, but this post alone says otherwise. You still have your voice, even if it feels shaky right now. You have something special, and that voice needs to be heard — not silenced by fear or forced decisions.
I also want to say, please don’t give up. The way you’re feeling right now, it won’t last forever — even though it feels like it will. There *is* light, even if you can’t see it right now. If you can, please talk to someone you trust. You don’t deserve to carry this all alone. You matter. Your life matters.
And just know, even a stranger like me is rooting for you. I hope one day you find the peace and safety you’ve always deserved — not through someone else's plans, but through your own choices. Stay strong. You’re not alone.