InfinityLM44

My parents r talking about my marriage. Marriage is the most scariest thing in this world. I fear men, I fear marriage, I fear everything related marriage and men. Each day I m passing with fears. I am having suicidal thoughts these days. I can't concentrate on writing anymore. I can't... Whenever I try to write I start feeling suffocate with thoughts that they might marry off in the morning. I am having fear.... I fear men... Men r the scariest thing in this world. I an crying every night. U guys don't need to understand me anymore. Pls I am sorry. Forgive me.. But Idek what I am doing. I raised by mom while hearing my whole life from her "Men r TRASH". Now she is saying "I am getting sick day by day, there is no one can take care of u, before my death u need to settle down". I can't make her understand that you are the one who feed me that men r TRASH. Now u r saying get married. I hate my father most. When a daughter grow up their first love/first man/first hero r their father. But my father's images too bad. Which I can't describe. From my father's image and from my mother's description about men I start hating men. Now they r saying get married. I want peace... I really want some peace. I never understand that I will stand in this position in my life some day. I hate everyone... I hate everyone... I really wonder if my father wasn't here then my mom would say same thing or not. My mom say "marriage only way from this way we can get freedom." But my mom don't understanding that she is throwing me in another prison.... Anyway forgive me... I don't want to get married. I really never want to get married. 

Richayizhan

Don't worry dear,
          	  Marriage is not always that scary...you don't have to be so afraid..trust me I was the same as u so terrified of letting someone in my life but last month I got married and u know whoever sees me now says "your after wedding glow is real baby" so my dear author it's all about who your partner is....I will pray with all my heart that u get the partner that can make u see the beauty of life and helps u out of your traumas...don't see the world with the same eye my friend it's very colourful...I hope u get to see the colours...with lots of love....❤️
          	  Keep smiling
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Story_hub_1991

@InfinityLM44 oh dear ...I wish I can really give you a hug  to comfort you to make you feel better. Don't be scared . You have endured a lot , God must be planning something great for you ...you can't trust men you fear of them I can understand just stay strong and tell your mom okay maybe she will understand and give some time to the time ....maybe someone ( no matter men or women ) who will cherish you dearly love you to the eternity will find you soon so please stay strong and when ever you feel suffocate try to talk to us okay we all here to hear you don't ever think of doing any stupid thing 
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Kimliansuk

@InfinityLM44 me too... but I haven't said this to anyone I hope you can find a happy road you choose for yourself. don't give up. we need you . I am still waiting to read your novel after my busy time. wish you happiness sincerely.
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Kumari057

I hope you are okay and please try to keep negativity away from you and about the marriage decision please keep your mind calm if you are not ready don't accept that and try to make your mother understand what you wish to do and what do you want.
          May god bless you

bts07v

With time situation will surely change . Only ‘ change’ is constant in life . Author this will also pass be patient and trust in god . From my life experience l can in the end everything becomes right . God is the best planner sometimes problems comes because of our past life karmas but god listen if we remember him it always works in my case keep fighting.. 

8xscope

Seems like you are still not back , Author i hope you did not take any serious step i read what they are saying but yk what try to talk to your mother if they do not understand Run away , Yes you hear it right just run away if you are married right now , not happy with marriage and not financially stable try to make source of income and just run away or try to set footing in that house. Having source of income is only way out , If you have money you can run away, you won't be bullied. I know i seems crazy but if your mental health is so affected just run away no need to consider anyone's reputation if they force you into this state there is no need to consider their feeling. You can be selfish for once. 

stwabelly

Hey sister,
          First of all, I’m really sorry for promoting my novel here without your permission.
          If you have some time, could you please read my novel and give me some feedback? I’d really appreciate your thoughts on how I can improve.
          
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netejej

Hey... I just want to say I read your post and it really hit me hard. I don’t know you personally, but your words spoke so deeply to me that I couldn’t scroll past without saying something. I can feel your pain through every line, and it breaks my heart to know someone as thoughtful and expressive as you is feeling so lost and hurt. You're not being dramatic or weak — you're just overwhelmed, and that’s completely okay.
          
          Marriage isn't just a tradition — for many, it's a huge emotional shift. And for someone who has grown up with fear, pain, and trauma tied to men or relationships, it's understandable that the idea feels terrifying. You’ve been fed fear since childhood, and now they expect you to embrace what scares you most? That’s not fair. You have every right to say no, to feel scared, and to want peace. You deserve peace.
          
          Your writing, even in pain, is powerful. So raw, so honest — and honestly, it’s one of the realest things I’ve read in a while. I know you said you can’t write anymore, but this post alone says otherwise. You still have your voice, even if it feels shaky right now. You have something special, and that voice needs to be heard — not silenced by fear or forced decisions.
          
          I also want to say, please don’t give up. The way you’re feeling right now, it won’t last forever — even though it feels like it will. There *is* light, even if you can’t see it right now. If you can, please talk to someone you trust. You don’t deserve to carry this all alone. You matter. Your life matters.
          
          And just know, even a stranger like me is rooting for you. I hope one day you find the peace and safety you’ve always deserved — not through someone else's plans, but through your own choices. Stay strong. You’re not alone.

EricaJasper4

Hey Author... How are you??... How's your mother's health...is she alright..i know you are facing a tough time... Please don't give up on yourself...God always help you...we are waiting for you...we miss you..Get well soon & comeback to your lovely readers...