@Infinity_Elysia
Hi kindly read my story po if you have a time sometimes po hehe. Kakaumpisa ko lang po rito and I hope magustuhan niyo po.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/381079248?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Ovecalin
“Why do you think you're not in a relationship yet?”
It might sound cliché, but I really don't think I'm "enough" yet.
You know, I have a lot of insecurities about myself.
I am not sure I can handle things when they go wrong.
I don’t know if I’m not ready to risk it all or if no one actually likes me.
But either way, I don’t think I’m ready.
Maybe I still need time to grow, to learn how to love myself fully before I can be someone’s partner.
I want to be sure that I’m in the right place emotionally, not just for someone else, but for myself too.
Until then, I’ll take my time.
Minsan kong hiniling sa Buwan na samahan muna ako sa pag-iisa,
Saksihan muna niya ang ingay sa aking puso,
Panuorin akong tumangis, huwag munang mawala ang kaniyang liwanag — huwag muna siyang umalis.
Kahit hindi niya ako makausap, o kahit hindi matapik itong aking likuran,
Sapat ang kabilugan, kasama ng mga bituwin upang aking pagmasdan—malayo ngunit nagpapagaan.
Mailabas lang ang sakit, maging magaan lang kahit saglit.
Kahit isang oras, o kalahating minuto ay hihiramin ko—
tumigil lang sa kirot itong aking puso.
Lahat naman ay kinayang ibigay sa'yo,
Ngunit kay lupit ng mundo, upang maramdaman kong hindi ako buo.
Na hindi ako sumapat,
Na hinanap ang kulang,
At ang mga bagay na hindi ko mapunan— hindi naman sinasadya kung hanggang dito lang.
At anong bigat sa pakiramdam, kapag piniling tumahimik,
Ngunit ang ingay sa puso ay nababatid.
Punong-puno ng "bakit",
At palaging walang kasagutan sa aking isip.
—Ibinulong ko sa Buwan, na sana mabilis nalang mawala ang sakit,
Upang hindi na madurog pa nang paulit-ulit.
“Ngunit liwanag lamang ang kaya nitong ibigay, at hindi ang lunas sa sakit”.
I wasn't anyone's first choice, and that's okay.
It's a hard truth I’ve long accepted, but somehow I keep wondering why.
Maybe I wasn’t enough, maybe I didn’t matter as much as I thought I did.
It hurts to know that I was never their first thought, never their first priority.
I keep replaying the moments where I thought I had a chance, only to realize that I was never even in the running.
It’s hard to not feel invisible, like I’m just someone passing through their lives without making a mark.
And yet, I keep moving, because that’s all I can do.
But deep down, I can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever truly be wanted.
@Infinity_Elysia you will always be my first choice authornim!!! Just know that we, infinities, loves you with all our heart!!! ♡˖꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱
It would be nice to have a circle of friends who heal you without them even realizing.
The kind of friends who don’t need to say anything, but just being around them makes everything feel a little easier.
They don’t have to fix anything or offer solutions, but their presence alone makes you feel seen, heard, and understood.
It's as if their energy brings comfort without effort, and you can just breathe and be yourself.
Sometimes, you don’t need advice or words, you just need that quiet support that helps you heal piece by piece, without them even knowing how much they mean to you.
Ask me any questions I'll answer them truthfully just don't ask anything harsh nor rude okay? Your authornim has a very sensitive heart, okie? Ask me anything I'll answer them. (•ө•)♡
@Dusk_Haven actually, it didn't happen overnight. To be truthful, I had to face many criticisms, mainly from my family members, they never believed me at first, not even until now that I reached four years of being an author and having 200+ followers, for them it wasn't enough, to them, being a writer is just a waste of time. There is really no secret at all, I mainly believe in the saying "Practice makes perfect." So, I guess that's what it is. (◔‿◔)
@Infinity_Elysia why are you so good at making stories authornim? What's your secret? ( ◜‿◝ )♡
@Anzucika I mean, am i really? Hehehe thank you though... I don't really find myself beautiful so, thank you ⊙﹏⊙
“Who would save you if others are busy trying to save themselves?”
It would have to be me.
When everyone else is caught up in their own battles, I have to be the one to keep going, to find the strength within myself to push through.
There’s no one else who can truly understand what I’m facing, no one else who can carry me except me.
It’s up to me to rise, to keep fighting, because in the end, I am the only one who can save myself.
247 followers? Woohoo I've never known I'd come this far!!! It's all thanks to you my dearest Infinities thank you so much for y'all's nonstop support to me I promise to be back as soon as possible I'm just dealing with a lot of things lately but, no worries, I'll be back as soon as possible. I love you all!!! Muahhhh, thank you so much again for all of my followers and supporters hope y'all grow even more as time goes by!!! Muahhhh ♡(> ਊ <)♡
I'm used to dealing with everything on my own, so sharing my feelings doesn't come naturally to me.
I’ve built this habit of keeping things inside, not because I don’t trust others, but because it feels safer that way.
So if it takes me longer to open up, I hope you can be patient.
It’s not easy for me to let my guard down, but when I do, it’s because I truly feel I can trust you.
It’s just hard to unlearn the idea that being vulnerable might hurt more than staying silent.
@Carat_Honey thank you so much for offering me help, hope to be able to connect with you soon ( ◜‿◝ )♡
@Infinity_Elysia heyy i understand your feelings, it's okay to be like this, if you wanna vent my insta is @the_best_honeyyyy
It's sad when you realize you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were