@InternallyXXTorn
Hello everyone! So recently O logged back onto Wattpad after four months (sorry!) And realized how my account is really had so I wanted to ask if anyone can help me get a new design and all, I might take down a few books for a while but I just wanted to ask in anyone is interested or knows someone who is thanks!
This isn't a normal announcement. @sweet-limes died of a heart attack yesterday. I never knew them but all the same it is sad to see someone pass away. Especially with a death that is remembered in my mind today. I want you all to think about them as you sleep tonight. I want you to add this person in whatever routine you may have (praying?) Even if you never this person. Something happened now 38 weeks ago today in my life that most people would never being up on a platform like this. It is kind of gruesome and depressing. Before you spam or block me with this is take and your trying to get attention ask yourself. Why would I make up this story and share it if I get triggered by this stuff most the time? Why would I say this happened to A FRIEND. If it was fake wouldn't you want it to be a stranger? My friend, whom I Will not mention his name for privacy reasons,committed suicide out in the wheat field on his uncle's property. I need him screaming and crying when I was trying to play with Molly(his uncle's dog) but she was whining. When we finally found him (Molly, his aunt, and I) he was already on the verge of death. He's had be making deep gashes all over himself and carved things like you're not good enough into his legs. He was bleeding out and by the time he was sent to the hospital he had passed. He wrote me a letter the day before and told me not to open it until the day he died. Of course I put it away assuming I would not open it for at least 20 years. I still am too scared to open it. I don't know why but I feel like it isn't his real death. I pray every Wednesday that he is safe in heaven. Wednesdays are the hardest day for me. It was the day we met and the day he died. I realize this is probably stupid to share and I will get lots of hard in one and everywhere really sure chapter is why I will taken a break! Only for a bout a month and Leave will read books but I will not reply to anything unless I feel like it is needed. See you in a month.
@InternallyXXTorn I remember this. You cried for weeks. I miss him, he was the one who helped me find out that I was bisexual. I mentioned my feelings about boys and girls and he helped me research it and get used to it. He was like a brother. Him and Austin should have met. Leave me to cry in peace.
Thank you for following me and adding my cover shop to your reading list!
Hey, I realize I have been reading a lot of abusive and harsh books lately SO a lot of you have followed me from books like that. I am making a few reading lists that "you and I" can read inbetween thses stories.
On a better note.
I am writing a new story with ZaynnotHarry and Gryffindor_Callie. It is a prequel to a story they are writing! It is going to be published on this account and possibly moved to a joint account which means, we need someone to make a email we can use or something. Me and ZaynnotHarry have too many emails and can't do it but thats the plan for the next 5 months.
Daily question
Kings or queens? Which are more important?
@InternallyXXTorn It depends on the context. In chess for example, the king is the more important one, cause the entire game revolves around him. But the queen is the strongest out of all the pieces. In real life, depending on which type of monarchy you're talking about, its either the king or the queen who inherits the throne. In the UK, the husband of a reigning queen is called a prince consort, no matter what, he won't be king. And in many cultures the reign is solely given to the bloodline of the queen. I wonder why?
@InternallyXXTorn Thanks for the follow!!
Welp. My sister has a girlfriend now and likes a guy. So that single party for screwed real quick. Anyone else single as a pencil missing an eraser? I need to have the single party with SOMEONE.
2020 in a few words,
As shitty and fake as Zouis
Happy new year, Ima Zayn to a better year, mabye one with a Deffenseless music video? We got the TPWK now back to Louis.
Once SOMEONE gives me a CaRrOt mabye I will do an insperational quote, or an update hmmmmm?
Someone asked me if I loved HArry and thought he was the best in the band. I, being the fan I am, said "I love Lou and Zayn a TAD bit more, but Harry will always be on the leaderboard" then that BI*CH said "You love Harry or you re a hater, he can't be number three, why Louis and ugh, ZaYn? He left and Louis was a cntroal freak." by that point I didn't know where my emotions where running to. So I said what was true;"Zayn gets hate and hasn't felt whole with anyone other than hi daughter and Gigi in a long time, him and Louis tend to be hollow now. They need all the love and even if they were rainbows of happiness they still deserve the love I will always give, they got me throughouta lot so shut it." they repiled" You hate or love him" so with my emotions split ith anger distress and sadness I quietly said" Well I geuss I am not a being if That is how it works, I am jut a deepfake. And as Hrry says, tyreat people with kindness, " my freind mutterd 'he also said if you get in trouble for hitting someone hit them hard but ok'. They stared me down and said" then go die" and left.
That drained me of love, and now I qestion who they where. me and Rylann where at the park singing Miss you and Meet me in the Hallway for 15 minutes, I would sing Miss you and she would sing it, She would sing Meet me in the hallway so I would Sing Meet me in the hallway or thats what happend until they (person whom we talked to) came over with a Harry Styles t-shirt and mask walked up within 3 minutes that started. I feel bad, but at the same time I wish I would have stuck around.......Did I make the wrong choice, or disregard the 'treat people with kindness'? I'm in a state if anyone has advice. Skyler is calming Rylann down, Rylann is p*ssed off at them and Sawyer (rember that drama) won't talk to me since me and Sky are still like sisters so any advice will be thanked and welcomed!
~ a confused Freind:(
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Lou! Love you from the Andromada galaxy and back! ~The Bision tennis class.
Hello eveyone! if you couldn't telll from the sweet message ZaynnotHarry's tennis team said and in a zoom meeting{dang covid, Lou won't get a proper party :( } it is Louis Tomlinson's BIRTHDAY , his 29th to be exact. look in on @Zaynnotharry and her one direction book "chanell 100' for more stuff such as his time line and celabrations for his 29th!
Is “The cat doesn’t talk” an inside joke or something I should understand cause I don’t-
Anyway hiiiiii! How’s life? :)
@InternallyXXXTorn Oh- so like...I should know- I mean, pffftttttt I do know ahahahahahahahahahahhaha! I’m not living under a rock or anything HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! *moves to hide the rock that says “Home Sweet Home” decorated with Billie Eilish and Harry potter references and decorations*
@Ravenclaw_Jade Well, an inside joke with hold on, like 30 billion people ;) Hiiiiiiiii ITS Lou's Bbirthday, SO WHAT DO YOU THINK Lmao