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okay, fuck it. not like anyone will read it but -
i'm going on hiatus. i feel alone and invisible and like i bother people so i need to take a break. my mental health has been shit lately but i don't tell anyone because no one would even care but i haven't been myself and it fucking sucks. i want to talk about it but no one bothers to listen or give a damn about it so i just keep to myself.
i've been overwhelmed and stressed with wanting a damn job for almost a month now and i haven't had any luck. my mom throws all of her problems at me then proceeds to call me a fucking disappointment for not helping her financially. my dad calls me a bunch of horrible names which lowers my self-esteem. and everything piles up.
i have lost any and every last bit of motivation to continue writing any of my books and it breaks my heart because i want to write, i want to update for you guys. but i lost my inspiration and motivation. and i hate it because you guys don't deserve floppy books. you deserve so much better than the content i'm providing.
with that being said, i'm going on a break. i don't know for how long. but yeah. if you wish to keel contact with me, i won't hesitate to give you my snapchat, personal instagram, facebook, or even my phone number. just let me know which one you would like and i'll gladly pm you. anyways, yeah. thanks for reading, if you did. see you in a minute. i love you all 3000 and more.
ashley ♡