Irenic_Anna

Today counts as one year of losing my father forever and I still somehow haven't healed from it. I wonder how long will it take for me to get used to this life without my anchor.
          	
          	I wish I could speak my mind to someone. I wish I wasn't being the villain in my own life and keeping it in unwillingly.
          	
          	No one...and I am being very serious... no one has ever asked me if I was okay, if I was doing fine...but always I am the one listening to their "your mother is suffering a lot" and "your little brother has been struggling."
          	
          	Funny none of those people has ever thought of thinking that she lost her dad too that she might be suffering too....and they have the audacity to come and talk to me about how others are suffering after the same loss.
          	
          	I am never in their thought...
          	
          	Not a single friend of mine has texted me in whole day...its funny isn't it? I keep expecting...and I understand they have their own life and sh*t....but people who really want to...take out time for you no matter what. My advice-- stop expecting, it hurts.
          	
          	It's not that I don't like my mom or bro or I don't understand their suffering I do and I have been keeping it in because I don't want them to worry. I want to protect them as much as I can.
          	
          	It's just it hurts when they are being acknowledged for their loss but why am I not?
          	
          	Am I not important? 
          	
          	Whatever....its the first time I am ranting like this on wattpad and I have this feeling that no one is going to care enough to read this message too...as I am being treated in the real life...
          	
          	But I am okay...I should be.
          	
          	-Irenic_Anna❤️

Luna-of-my-alpha

@Irenic_Anna we love you Author , you can share anything and everything with us . we are here for you . idk how much you are suffering right now , loosing a father and live without them is really difficult. hope u take care of yourself
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Rosemarry52

@Irenic_Anna don't say like this.. we are here for you maybe we came late but we will always be there for you & you have endure lot dear... I know it's not easy to lose someone whom we loved so much, but you are doing good buy handling things & about people I know it's hurt but I would say never take their word seriously never (they don't care about anyone) & maybe after your dad you become the piller of your house that's why people wants you to be strong but you are also a human right ? You did great by coming here.. always run here whenever you feel you don't have anyone to talk okay... & About friends nowdays they are just friends only in name.... Take care ❤️ hmm we love you... I know life becoming very much hard but we can't do anything but to accept everything.. 
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Anaghasuresh9

@Irenic_Anna hey there... I usually don't do chats.. but I want to talk to you today.. I read that you are controlling yourself just because you don't want to hurt your mom and brother further, but, please don't keep it in. It will hurt you more and no matter how much time passes, you will be stuck in the same moment. I don't wish that upon anyone. You don't have to be strong always. Just let go of yourself at times. And don't let others get into your head and always remember you are not alone. 
          	  Be happy and take care of yourself 
          	  May God bless you 
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BTSlogyTopper

Hey author do you remember me?
          
          
          I'm quite busy these days so I don't get the time to read books here anymore, but I really miss blue moon and your writing, I'll read from the start again when I get the time. Complete the book asap :D
          
          
          -your lovely and one of the early reader of your. Mwah mwah also happy new year in advance, may the coming year be blissful for you and your family (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

Irenic_Anna

@BTSlogyTopper ofc i remember you...you are my fav and most loyal reader....i really miss your comments...i will complete the book soon...
            
            Happy new year darling i wish you get lot of happiness and success in life....stay happy and stay healthy❤️
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NV0208

Hello Author I hope you're doing well. I just hope you'll update soon I'm dying to read the book plssss author update soon. You've done a great job and I loved your writing.

NV0208

@NV0208 Best wishes to you and just so you know I love your work and keep going. Saranghae
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Irenic_Anna

@NV0208 thank you sm i will update soon i am working on next part
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Luna-of-my-alpha

Hey author , I wanna ask when u will update next . 

Luna-of-my-alpha

ok author , but dont force yourself. I'll be waiting patiently . take your time
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Irenic_Anna

@Luna-of-my-alpha i am working on it constantly and i will be back soon just hold on darling and thank you for your patience ❤️
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abhishitha

Hey!
          
          How are you? How's health now nowadays?
          It's been a long time talking to you. How are days. Did you do something good. Are you eating well. Please don't skip food. Don't go to bed with an empty stomach.
          
          
          I don't know If you remember me. But hey I just thought of you so here I am.
          
          Well I completed my  useless degree biotechnology now waiting for results. What are you doing now? Hope your studies are going great.
          
          Don't get cold and stay away from mosquitoes if possible . The weather is unimaginable so do carry umbrella or rain coat if needed. 
          
          Don't get wet in rain okay. We don't want you catching viral infection.
          
          
          It would be nice if I could msg you in private instead but I'm stepping out comfort zone for you darling so take care yeahh?
          
          
          Also always be careful on the road. 
          Be safe...
          If any one troubles you keep a military photo of BTS. 
          I heard it's nice way to escape.
          Also eat well and sleep well.
          I just wanted know how you are doing so I'll stop now
          
          Bye bye 
          
           Borahae 
          

Irenic_Anna

@abhishitha i am so sorry i did not reply i recently shifted in a new house so I've been busy....how was your interview?
            
            And congratulations on such a good score i am so proud of you darling....i hope you do your best and become the best version of whatever you are planning to me be it in career or as a human being....though you are a perfect perfect gurl for me....
            
            Keep hard working and you will reach the heights that even you haven't imagined...
            
            I love you so much and enjoy this new phase of your life.
            
            Borahae❤️
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abhishitha

@abhishitha . I am taking care of myself. And yesterday I got my cpget results guess what I got 278 rank. Gosh I'm so happy that I jumped. 
            So today I have an interview for a job. And I am so nervous. However your reply made my day.
            Wish me luck .
            ♥️ Love you too
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Irenic_Anna

@abhishitha hi darling...
            Why would i forget you? You are such a beautiful reader of mine.
            And don't worry i am taking care of myself and i would love for you to do the same. Please take care of yourself because all the work i am doing here with mu story is for you guys and i want all of you to enjoy it.
            
            I know i am a little late but i am planning a better plot of events for the story...better than my orginal ideas.
            
            So hang in there you are booked for a nice roller coaster ride.
            
            Also i miss you i too wish we could speak in private i would have told you so much....but alas maybe we will find a better way in future.
            
            Well i completed my degree as well and i am waiting for my degree too...studies are going great...
            
            Stay healthy for me and eat well...
            
            Love you❤️
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Irenic_Anna

Today counts as one year of losing my father forever and I still somehow haven't healed from it. I wonder how long will it take for me to get used to this life without my anchor.
          
          I wish I could speak my mind to someone. I wish I wasn't being the villain in my own life and keeping it in unwillingly.
          
          No one...and I am being very serious... no one has ever asked me if I was okay, if I was doing fine...but always I am the one listening to their "your mother is suffering a lot" and "your little brother has been struggling."
          
          Funny none of those people has ever thought of thinking that she lost her dad too that she might be suffering too....and they have the audacity to come and talk to me about how others are suffering after the same loss.
          
          I am never in their thought...
          
          Not a single friend of mine has texted me in whole day...its funny isn't it? I keep expecting...and I understand they have their own life and sh*t....but people who really want to...take out time for you no matter what. My advice-- stop expecting, it hurts.
          
          It's not that I don't like my mom or bro or I don't understand their suffering I do and I have been keeping it in because I don't want them to worry. I want to protect them as much as I can.
          
          It's just it hurts when they are being acknowledged for their loss but why am I not?
          
          Am I not important? 
          
          Whatever....its the first time I am ranting like this on wattpad and I have this feeling that no one is going to care enough to read this message too...as I am being treated in the real life...
          
          But I am okay...I should be.
          
          -Irenic_Anna❤️

Luna-of-my-alpha

@Irenic_Anna we love you Author , you can share anything and everything with us . we are here for you . idk how much you are suffering right now , loosing a father and live without them is really difficult. hope u take care of yourself
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Rosemarry52

@Irenic_Anna don't say like this.. we are here for you maybe we came late but we will always be there for you & you have endure lot dear... I know it's not easy to lose someone whom we loved so much, but you are doing good buy handling things & about people I know it's hurt but I would say never take their word seriously never (they don't care about anyone) & maybe after your dad you become the piller of your house that's why people wants you to be strong but you are also a human right ? You did great by coming here.. always run here whenever you feel you don't have anyone to talk okay... & About friends nowdays they are just friends only in name.... Take care ❤️ hmm we love you... I know life becoming very much hard but we can't do anything but to accept everything.. 
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Anaghasuresh9

@Irenic_Anna hey there... I usually don't do chats.. but I want to talk to you today.. I read that you are controlling yourself just because you don't want to hurt your mom and brother further, but, please don't keep it in. It will hurt you more and no matter how much time passes, you will be stuck in the same moment. I don't wish that upon anyone. You don't have to be strong always. Just let go of yourself at times. And don't let others get into your head and always remember you are not alone. 
            Be happy and take care of yourself 
            May God bless you 
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Taekoo_3001

hey author , how many chapters of blue moon are  left ? actually i wanna start reading the book but if it is close to getting completed then i will binge read it

Irenic_Anna

@Taekoo_3001 just a few more...10 to 12 chapters max
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PriyAs079

Hi authornim..how r u? R u doing fine ? How was ur exams ? 

PriyAs079

@Irenic_Anna lemme give u a hug ..love u  
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Irenic_Anna

@PriyAs079 thank you so much for saying that...i thought i was not good enough to earn such readers who will say that i am their fav...you made my day...thnk u sm
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BTSlogyTopper

Hey author how are you doing?

BTSlogyTopper

@Irenic_Anna congratulations. Yes, you will get through this ❤️
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Irenic_Anna

@BTSlogyTopper entrance done...it was pretty good, better than i expected actually. Today i had my farewell, my college is done...i have my final term exams starting at 4th of april.
            
            Thank you so much for being so kind. And yes i feel it is getting bottled up i feel more and more unstable with every passing day.
            
            I just think that everything would have been a lot more easier if i had my father to rely on. His absence is just making weak and weaker.
            
            But i will get through this. I have to...right?
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BTSlogyTopper

@Irenic_Anna and try spending a Lil time with someone, so you can clear your mind. Don't be all alone. Being alone will bottle up everything, and you will be more stressed.
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