Dearest Lovely,
I am a loser. To be more specific, I’m a loser sitting on the floor of my bedroom thinking about a girl I’ve never met before and how I could possibly make her life better in any way I can. I can’t hug her, can’t kiss her, can’t show her a good time around town, introduce her to my friends and I certainly can’t touch her in any way shape or form.
So instead I decided to preoccupy myself. I've been thinking of space. The stars, the moon, all about Mars, the great vastness of space and how my tiny human existence could possibly add up to anything in any point in time that’s more than simply being a son to a mother who wanted a son.
I can’t build, can’t think outside the box when it comes to shaping, my hands won’t write down the proper words to write a long story, and I’m sure that being a freelance artist won’t put me in any textbooks, not that I’d want something like that though.
It blows my mind a little bit to know such an amazing, astonishing, astounding person chooses to talk to me, even at all. The knowledge and privilege that I’ve gained simply by knowing this girl is more than I feel I’ve ever learned so quickly.
Sad thoughts come and go, and she’s the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and then I realize it might be years till I get the opportunity to see her face to face. If that ever does happen. If we don’t lose touch. If out of all odds, wishbones and shooting stars work, I swear, I’ll never want anything else.
To reiterate, I’m a loser, sitting on my bedroom floor, thinking of my favorite person in the world and I don’t regret a thing.