Emily_Seraphim
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well since you literally dont use wp
im gonna vent
to u
abt u
;-;
...riiiight this is awkward
ok so umm anyways
as yk i have a crush on u
but like...ik i say i get a lot of crushes
tbh the only ppl i rly talk to abt deep stuff like this are u, john, and eva, but i havent talked abt THIS with u cuz uhhhh you'll see ig'
so anyways im always known as the simp
which is like
yeah
im the simp
but... am i? really??
that's the question i asked myself all summer
yep, that's me, the "bisexual simp" who spent the whole summer questioning if she was aro... or worse, straight
i started to question everything
at this point i had recently had a friend (im not saying names) tell me they had a crush on someone and who that crush was
so i asked "wait what are the symptoms of a crush?"
and they said "butterflies in ur stomach" (google said "increased heart rate" among other symptoms im too lazy to type)
and what did i realize?
the only time i had EVER felt that way... was around zoro and sanji
"am i aro?" i would ask. "do fictional crushes count? or am i straight? have i ever liked a girl in the first place? if i never actually like beatrice... or izzy... or onion..."
and naturally
i spiraled
okay, flashback time
ik ur not expecting this
june 19, 2025
the day after sophie's birthday
the day after my chorus class's presentations
the day before the last day of school
a thursday
we went to the lake with ella, and after, we had a girl scout meeting
ur mom dropped off ur bathing suit, and for a while, we were playing in the water, just the two of us
and idk what it was, the light messing with my brain, or SOME unexplainable force, but... i felt... something
i shook it off, saying to myself "nuh uh, nope, we're not doing this again, i hurt her, i like onion, i can't do this"
...sure, buddy
i stopped "liking" onion somewhere in july, i think, so ofc by the time end of august rolled around, i was single, free of crushes- wait, was i?
hahaha... nope.
(continued in part two)
Emily_Seraphim
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yeah so that one time i asked u out irl i planned on saying all this
twas a learning experience i suppose (aka an experience where i learned im shit with words and can only convey my true emotions at 12 in the morning via text-)
Emily_Seraphim
oh i forgot something
at some point, my crushes on sanji and zoro kinda just... disappeared? like, they were there and now they're not
like ofc i still love them sm and they will always be my favorite ship (besides us) and my favorite fictional characters of all time and i still think they're both super hot and stuff
but i don't have a crush on them anymore
(don't expect the glazing to stop though)
oh and one extra more thing
yes, what i said is true, i would eat anything sanji gave me
but i would also eat anything YOU gave me-
<3