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I'm actually so shockingly happy right now
Like the past 2 years my mental health has been so incredibly shit for so many reasons and recently (past few months) I've gained A FEW more reasons yet somehow ignoring it has helped???
And just hanging out with my mum, cleaning the house, going out shopping, painting my nails a Christmassy colour, making fucking DELICIOUS ASS COOKIES MY FIRST TIME EVER MAKING COOKIES, I'm making BROWNIES sometime this week or next week, probably will be making my sister a birthday cake even if its box mix.
And I'm happy?? After losing the last person that willingly spoke to me (toxic ass ex so it's good that she's gone but now I literally don't have a single friend or anyone to talk to) I'm happy? Like I'm sat down watching the walking dead for the first time with a warm cookie and cold glass of milk and I'm about to cry from happiness.
I'm also making my mum buy actually good cooking supplies (would u believe we didn't have a whisk or sillecone spatula??? AND SO MANY DULL KNIVES OMG HOW IS SHE EXPECTING ME TO BE HER SOUS CHEF THIS CHRISTMAS IF I CANT CHOP SHIT UP)