ItsMei_123

I hope i'll do a good job in writing even if i don't have any talents.

So i'm planning to write a story because it always in my mind 
          so i hope i finish it this 2022 
          Dec. 30,2021 i decided to write this story but since i'm not good with everything 
          i kind of don't know the title for the story 
          so my plan is to finish the whole story before i decide what's the title

at ang mas nakakalungkot pa 
          Birthday ko na sa May 16 which is sa sunday kaya parang mas nakakalungkot kasi eversince bata pa ko wala akong birthday party katulad sa iba hanggang ngayon 
          ni hindi nga ako nagdebut nung 18 ko e kasi 1st birthday ng pamangkin ko yun kaya mas pinaghandaan kaya nagpaubayan na ko although hindi naman talaga pinagplanuhan
          yung 18th birthday ko or debut ko 
          as in never in my 20 years(sa sunday) na nagkaroon ako ng party and gifts from friends and family
          may mga kaibigan naman ako pero hindi ako yung main friends nila 
          yung parang saling pusa kalang sa friendship nila 
          yes my friends make a birthday suprise sa mga friends namin na nagambag at tumulong ako pero sila ni isang beses hindi nila nagawa 
          ni hindi nga nila alam kailan birthday ko e malalaman lang nila dahil kay Facebook 
          nakakalungkot lang pag ganun 
          kasi number na nagpapalungkot sakin is yung hindi naaalala or naaappreciate yung maliit na bagay tungkol sakin 
          pero that's also my happiness.
          

I don't consider myself na merong Depression kasi parang ang lalim ng meaning ng word na yan and hindi ako sure sa kalagayan ko kaya hindi ko masasabing depress ako 
          I think I'm Just lost and no one's here 
          to help me even myself can't help me.

I'm lost and drowning on my own fuckin' thoughts and no one can save me here
          basta isang araw nalang pag gising ko di ko nalang alam kung sino ako
          alam mo yun? 
          yung di mo na alam kung anong pangarap mo? anong gusto mo? anong makakapag pasaya sayo? or kumasaya ka ba talaga? like that.
          I'm just failure and no one notice me like fuckin' people wala man lang nakaka appreciate sakin or sa mga nagagawa ko 
          kung di ka sumunod sa isang utos 
          ipagdidiinan na agad sayo na WALANG KWENTA ANG TAMAD TAMAD WALA NA NGANG AMBAG AYAW PA KUMILOS 
          like wtf di lang sinunod ng isang beses kung ano ano na agad sasabihin na masama pero kapag nakagawa ka ng mabuti wala lang sakanila
          ako kasi yung taong sobrang naaappreciate yung nakaka appreciate sa ginagawa kong or tungkol sa kin kahit maliit na bagay 
          ganun ako ka sensitive
          WATTPAD AND MUSICS ARE MY ONLY SCAPE AND COMFORT ZONE!
          tulad ngayon nanghihingi ako ng 500 pesos pambayad para sa defense kasi defense na nex week and deadline ng bayadan bukas tas ayaw akong bigyan tas yung ate kong dapat magbibigay bigla nalang tinopak tas ayaw na ko bigyan kung ano ano pa sinasabi
          like wtf nakakaiyak kayo!
          Oo di halata sakin na marami akong problema and di rin halata sa pamilya namin na walang pera pero DI LAHAT NG NAKIKITA NYO YUN LANG YUN KASI MAY MGA BAGAY NA MAS MALALIM PA DUN NA HINDI MO MALALAMAN HANGGAT HINDI SINASABI NG MISMONG TAONG YUN
          

Can i just die because i'm tired?
          seriously di ko na alam gagawin ko sa buhay ko
          walang specific na pangarap or dream job or kahit course para sa college this year
          i don't know when and how i lost myself 
          basta isang araw gumising ako na walang direksyon sa buhay
          that's why i'm thankful sa mga otors ng Jenlisa/Chaesoo stories kasi somehow nakakalimutan ko yung mundong kinabibilangan ko at nagcecreate nalang ako ng sariling mundo for my comfort.
          hindi sa oa or what sadyang pagod lang ako kahit wala pa kong napapatunayan or nakakamit sa buhay 
          basta i'm mentally tired and i literally lost myself

Hey, minmin122818! Dropping by to say thank you for all the support. I saw that you followed me and added my story, The Last Snow, to your "BP" list. I hope you enjoy reading it.
          
          I also read your pinned post and couldn't help but smile. Hehehe. I won't stop writing ever so you can have lots of things to read. I promise. Fighting, Minmin! :)
          
          If you haven't read it yet, I recommend reading my story, Home. It's already completed and I was told that it was a great story by other Jenlisa shippers I know. No pressure though.
          
          Anyway, stay safe always! Lets be happy and healthy together! <3

JENLISA LANG SAKALAM
          Please lang ituloy nyo mga stories nyo na Jenlisa 
          takte ang daming ongoing na ang gaganda e tas biglang di na itutuloy
          rumor lang yan 
          nalagpasan na natin to kaya malalagpasan ulit natin to 
          keep it up! and Don't Give Up!
          In this situation that lot of Jenlisa Shippers are Sad 
          Be The Reason for them to smile through your stories 
          please lang dapat end game ah

TO ALL JENLISA AUTHORS THAT HAS AN ONGOING STORIES 
          PLEASE CONTINUE YOUR STORIES 
          BECAUSE I HAVE LOT OF ONGOING STORIES THAT I REALLY LOVE AND EXCITED ABOUT THE NEXT CHAPTER 
          SO PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP AND CONTINUE WRITING 
          DON'T LET YOUR SELF AFFECTED BY THE RUMOR BECAUSE 
          JENLISA LANG SAKALAM