Its_me_on_da_net

OKSY THIS IS WEIRD AF but i have been trying to find rusger fanfic that ummm, is about germany being russia's adopted family or smth like that. then germany got recruited into the EU at an early age (when bidding farewell russia realised that germany love him, not as a brother but as a lover; before that russia crushed on female usa or smth NOT THE EU X GERMANY FANFIC). 
          then russia forgot everything about germany, even his existence...?? they met when russia was working as a bartender and germany (now an adult) drank there. they had a chat then russia realised germany is his adopted brother or smth i dont remember. they dated for a while-there is a chapter of them countries around a campfire idk dawg. then for some reason russia ditched germany. germany self-harmed then russia came back and shit happened

today marks the 2nd week that i survived my failed suicide.
          btw have been listening to kyu-kurarin a bit too much and its affecting my mental state