Hey, so, there's a high chance I'm going to be inactive for a while (about 5 or 6 months). I'm just going through a rough time at the moment, and I need some time to myself, away from the internet. I have thoughts that I shouldn't be having, and keep questioning why I was even born or why I exist on this horrible planet. I just really hate my life and am so jealous of the lives that other people have, let alone my friends' lives. They have normal lives, with normal families (and amazing houses, like excuse me). They get to celebrate holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas without worrying about a fight that makes you so scared you want to scream and cry. When they talk about what happened over their holiday breaks, I have to listen to their awesome vacation while keeping a smile on my face, when my mom and I don't even have the money to GO on vacation. It's things like this and much more that actually have me think about suicide. I have to take a few hours and just sit in my room or walk to my elementary school and sit under a tree, just to calm down. I have to realize that there are people that care about me, and taking my own life would most likely have at least a few people sad that I'm no longer existing. I just really wish my life was enjoyable, and that I had things that other people take for granted. Anyway, I just really needed a place to vent where not a lot of people I know could see this, since I don't want idiots online who I don't even know to message me about complaining about my problems to the world. I'm now going to go cry and watch Rick and Morty.