Fuck

If only there's a world that only consist of u n me ma dear :)

The only way for me to wake up, is for u to hurt me. So before u leave, pls, break me. So I will only hate u n nothing more. I'm sorry that i can never trust u when u said u will never leave me, u r someone important to me till the only thought of u leaving me already made ma anxiety work up.

I'm calling your name, I'm screaming it out, just love me :)

If u wanna beat me up then go on. It hurts but I know it can't be equal to the pain I give u. So please don't cry. I never thought it will break me to see you cry. I'm sorry. I swear I wish I was never born. What is there to be proud of  if ur the chosen one when all the thing u do is becoming a burden?  I swear I don't wanna live. I want to but life is just sucks. I swear I wanna dissappear so u will never see my stupid being again. Do u love me? I know u do. Then do u hate me? Maybe? Heh I hate myself too :)