Hi, Self!
If ever you come back to your wall again, I just want to remind you that you're more than enough. Nasa depressive episode man tayo ngayon, malalagpasan din natin ito. Halos hindi ka na magparamdam sa lahat dahil gusto mo na lang maglaho na parang bula. Most of them may never understand what you're going through, and that's okay. After everything that has hurt you these past few weeks, there are so many thoughts running through my mind. One truth keeps coming back to me: I have to keep moving forward, just like I used to. It's hard for me, but I have to do this.
Nanginginig ang mga kamay mo ngayon, and you're struggling to breathe. Coming back here feels like drowning in the deepest part of the ocean. I want to run away from everything that keeps hurting me, but I can't. I have to face it, even if I have to do it alone, even if it hurts me deeply. Wala tayong choice kundi ang umusad. I have to admit that I'm deeply hurting right now. I have nowhere else to run, and no one may ever truly understand the pain I'm feeling at this very moment. But even so, I have to keep going.
So, Self, please hold on. You've survived days you thought you never would. You've made it through pain you once believed would destroy you. And somehow, you're still here. Maybe you're tired. Maybe you're hurting. Maybe you don't know where you're going anymore. But please, don't give up on yourself.
One day, you'll look back at this version of you and realize that despite everything, you chose to stay. And I'm proud of you for that.
