Iz

Today, at 5:19, after asar.
          
          I prayed with my heart, for seeking way, help, strength.
          
          The answer, that I don’t even know what it is. But im waiting for it.

People won’t reaching towards me

I lose myself  slowly 

The moment i open my eyes, it went completely silent. I look around, my ears stopped making the sound. Confusing.

Those voices in my sleep, like im in a loud area, people are talking around me, those white and black, people walking around, 

It won’t stop..

My head is so hurt..

I’m sorry, i failed my parents.

I can sense it…

Ya Allah, is this really it?