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Happy pride month.

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Hey i pooped

Butternut squash

I need a nap but if I go to sleep in my current mood and at the current time then wake up at 11pm which is in 4 hours I will go insane again and be grumpy all day tomorrow. So I'm going to stay up because I know that if I do go to sleep I will wake up and my insomnia will kick in.

If you watch Markipliers yandere simulator and my hero academia you will understand my next words ( inhales deeply) 
          
          
          
                                        Momo is boobs Mackenzie... 

Do any of y'all know where I can find some depression juice. If you don't know what that is its basically any drink that makes you happy and you don't feel the pain any more. I would really like some because in still locked in my room in a little ball with blankets surrounding me on my bed and my cat is just lying next to me.

I'm going to ask a question and give a explanation on why I think so. 
                 Would the world be better off without me??? Because all I do is waste people time and space. The only thing that I am good for is being one of the only people that gets mentally and fiscally attacked and just takes it. I'm just a disappointment to all the people that I care about and I know that most of them just want me to stop existing in the world. Honestly I just want to be excepted and told that I'm enough. There are a few people who can tell me that and it will help...
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          But they probably won't because how can anyone love a stupid, dumb, and ugly blonde girl like me? No one has ever told me that I was enough and they loved me  I just want to be okay this year but my sadness has gotten worse and I don't know what to do to feel okay again. There are three people who can make me feel okay again my mom my best friend and the first person that taught me the meaning of the word love but he died in 2020 because I was to shy to tell him I liked him I know I could have saved him if I had told him I'm time but I was to late. The day I was finally going to tell him he committed suicide and now I don't know what it means to be okay anymore. I tried to date my best friend because I also like her but her mom found out and now she is probably going to get sent to a boarding school. And my mom is ashamed of me because I'm not the daughter she wanted in not straight, I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, and I'm definitely not perfect. I'm sorry if you read this and it made you sad I didn't mean to make you sad if I did I just felt down all or the sudden and now I feel like a waste of space.

Since 2021 is about to end send this to everyone that made your year special :)