J0rdan-Th3-Fr3aK

(TW: Suicide, possible S/H) 
          	So.... 
          	I got yelled by comfort friend since I've been ignoring them after my other friend passed away and they said that I shouldn't exist anyway
          	I couldn't help but cut my arm a little with scissors, and then my Ex-Best friend pushed me against the lockers and started bullying me because they had feelings for me but I didn't had any in return
          	if only I hadn't exist I wouldn't get bullied, pressured. sexualized
          	my existence doesn't matter anyway I keep messing things up 
          	I accidentally broke a vase causing my to get beat up for like 20 minutes?...
          	I was threatened that if I told anyone i would be forced to starve
          	I feel like starving myself and kms already
          	My parents don't care about me
          	I lost my comfort friend and best friend
          	I'm starting to isolate myself now
          	wondering if anyone would love/care for me instead of hate/Abuse..
          	Would anyone care if just die?....
          	 I always feel like a burden to everyone
          	and I'll always will be a burden to everyone
          	my existence is useless..
          	I mess up everytime
          	I've been feeling like i'm losing my mind  
          	and like I'm in a loop 
          	I try to be mature for my siblings but I feel like I can't be perfect...
          	I wondered if my sibling Rain is better than me the way she reacts, Talks, Socialize 
          	while I don't I'm the opposite of her
          	i always thought that i'm a mistake for everything 
          	my existence is worthless 
          	i can't keep up with life anymore 
          	 just a second choice for people's
          	just a toy for people's needs
          	I’ve been insecure about stuff I’m starting to hate physical touch, avoiding eye contact a lot, I kept getting my pronouns wrong.. they used He/Him instead of He/They no matter how hard I tried to tell them they kept using He/Him… 
          	I get asked multiple times if I’m ’Fine’ Even though I always fake by being fine even though I’m not and a lot is going on in my head I hear voices saying stuff 
          	And other stuff I can’t keep up with my parents I always ask if I’m okay and other stuff.. I sometimes have identity crises

qv33n3

@J0rdan-Th3-Fr3aK I wish I knew you irl so we could talk
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qv33n3

@J0rdan-Th3-Fr3aK COMFORT FRIEND???????
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LylaKylie609

@J0rdan-Th3-Fr3aK don't leave dint say that I care if you die or not I don't want you to go
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Han-Shot-First

Hey, Jordan.
          We don’t know each other, but I just want to say that I’m sorry you’re feeling this way.  But offing yourself isn’t the answer.  You’re strong, strong enough to resist the horrible voices telling you that you would be better off.  Please look at the below list:
          Reasons not to off yourself (created by me):
          1. You’re strong
          2. You’re pretty awesome, judging from what I’ve seen on your MB
          3. There might be a new book/movie that you would like to watch
          4. Lots of people on Wattpad care about you, and want to help you through this tough time
          5.  Despite what you may think, you HAVE WORTH AND YOU MATTER.  Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise

Lifeisbooks4ever

I hope your ok, just remember, that the world wouldn't be the same without you in it, and you're the light in someone's eyes, believe in yourself, also, don't let what others say affect you, someone used to make fun of me for liking country music, I ignored them, or tried, I used to be a problem, still am, Ran out of school, got suspended in kindergarten(don't ask), and was almost always behind in school, I've changed, you can too:)