jae

Maybe in another life in a different universe, you'd treat me right but for now goodbye, dearest 

Today is my death day for real

Barely morning and I'm in my crying spree god knows when will it be gone

How sad when you keep trying to love people and they keep breaking your heart and coming back and mending it and repeat 

Its like talking to a wall when I talk to her, unbelievably oblivious ready to curse at me anytime 

I love the way you think its a joke when I ask you to take care of yourself cos I'm dying w/o you actually knowing that I am from inside and my health is at its edge 
          
          Sigh

The more you love and do for someone they start dumping their anger on you

When you used to read those cliche wattpad stories back in the days about y/n wanting to get babied by her s/o when she's sick and thought uhhhh who even wants that irl until you fell sick and realised- well. y/n same. 

I don't know whom to go to and whom to even seek out to for help or shoulder I'll just be a listener never be listened too

So much pain and distraction for what