@EpicallyJoey Oh god :( I found out he secretly got back with lily. He hurt me twice. It's enough. I won't forgive and forget. He called me a fuckin nut, a physcopath, childish and I spaz the he'll out. Well u know what? I've grown old enough to know I shouldn't put my hopes on a guy that doenst deserve me. He regretted saying those things and well he regretted saying i was only 5% of his heart. Well, guess what? Ever heard it's too late to apologize? Oh and he shot himself. I have image of his gun. -.- he survived the ordeal. Not that I care. He is at home Resting now. And well omg set fire to the rain and someone like u totally fits.
And this is a long story short. I'm tired to explain everything. But I accept fate. I admit defeat. I lost the battle. Heard of this saying. If you love two people, go for the second one. Becaus eif you loved the first one you wouldn't have fallen for the second one & love is a battle, it doesn't matter who you love first, is who u love in the end. His last words were : I always did love you. I don't give a flying fuck. It doesn't matter anymore. I surrender. I try to forget. But it's hard. And well. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger :)