This year as a whole is so horrible for me, the last thread of my sanity was BTS ANS BTS only!! and after the news of their military enlistment I calmed myself saying it's good bc am getting busier and busier day by day I don't even have time to sleep, there are days of past weeks were I haven't gotten a single hour sleep, so I thought maybe the lack of content and them going to military is good so I don't get that distracted from my work but- but GOD there is this heavy feeling inside my chest every time Jin's military related stuff come to my mind I just want to cry but it's stupid according to others am being stupid God the thing that hurts me the most is them, our 7 beautiful angels after years of being together they're gonna separate for the longest they have ever been...it pains me so much so much I can't do anything, no one can do anything bc all other Kpop fans had to or have face it, had faced, we armys aren't special in this aren't we? idk man I needed to rant ahh ignore all the typos and error my eyes were sweating lol