Namjoon's Wife

ur profile made my heart melting fr <3

Heyyy! Hope you're having a lovely day
          I'd truly appreciate it if you could give my book a read and share your thoughts
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/327129038?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=Jinleen_5&wp_originator=RN1KiZ967g5WaxbKP0oHa0QAjweEJdEsswUQOA12iQ%2FEfLZafqY%2BEMzyIG4CjeBs5t2Td96roRp18hmCekzS9xIvoCMPwR04yDf5MJMgGhDyyyE1q1WLMvUTfz8tbtRc

Can you re-upload “His keeper” again ? :( 

I finally have the grace and strength to say all this, it's like a huge weight was lift above my soul. I've prayed for this to happen for three years. This feeling is a cry of joy. I'm very grateful to St. Augustine, this words was really the push
          "The corrupt will had been converted into passion, and from serving passion, it had become a habit, and because I had not resisted the habit, a need had been created...I was convinced, I had noting to oppose [to the Lord], except for these words full of laziness and sleep, "soon, soon: wait a little longer." But the 'soon' never came to an end and the 'a little longer' dragged on for a long time."
          
          I also thank the priest who kept encouraging me and praying for me and straight up gently told me: "In Luke 17:2, it tell you: It would be better to be thrown into the sea with a millstone hung around your neck than to cause one of these little ones to fall into sin."
          Now I realize, it was the weight I'll die with and I won't let that happen. I don't care if I spoil your mood, I do not care if I angered your desire. I did the right thing and I will leave that way.
          Thank you for your compliments but I'm going to forget all about it. I have deleted everything and I will delete this account after some days because we all know temptation is not easy to resist. I know I'm not the only one who's struggling with this, you know it yourselves, no matter how many excuse you have there is that voice that keeps telling you. I never know when I'm going to die, I do not want to die having these in my heart; it's not worth it. 
          I'm so relieved.

For the longest time, my heart is always full of unhappiness and guilt. The way I treat Kim Namjoon and all the seven members, to this moment now, the guilt and shame is so great upon me. There was a voice in my head that ALWAYS told me "This is wrong" and I knew it was but I still do it and excused myself saying "they won't know". But it kills me each words I write and my heart feels so heavy.
          I've been battling with this and always try to get rid of everything, but eveytime I see the reactions and attention I get, my selfishness wins over me but just a couple of minutes the guilt just becomes heavier. I treat someone who saved my life like this, I treated his brothers like this, this is so sick and disgusting but I do it and yet I say "I love BTS". This is how I love them? Treat them like clout, my own delusional pleasure and even write lewd things. This is not love at all but using them for their looks, my own imagination, speculation and disturbing fantasies. I really can't continue, not even for BTS but God.
          I really don't care what you say, and I know some of you are actually Christians. Just because we like this stuff doesn't make it right, because in the end it's addictive and there is no true happiness or something to be proud of. "Hi God, I always say I love you but I like being delusional and treating seven humans like pleasure idols more." Is what I do every time I write one word. Even if you aren't a Christian, and you claim you love our hard-working Men and say you read things like this to them, I'd find myself EMBARRASSING AND GROSS. I always try to not write these but the attention I'd receive would always change my mind and I can't even realize that it's an addiction.
           I had so much. So many plots, so many book covers, so many ideas written, so many unpublished, so many drafts...all for only for my guilt and addiction to grow.

OH SHAT "HIS KEEPER" HAS REACHED 1K READS!!! OH MY GAD YALL ARE CRAZY!!! I LOVE YOU!

EASTER IS HERE! I CAN FINALLY READ WATTPAD BOOKS AGAIN!!! HAHAHAHA....wait i have school work to catch up on...UGHH!!!

WHen you have too much draft, you dunno which to write anymore IM GOING TO GO CRAZY! SO HELP ME PICK,
          Attention(MinJoon)
          His Keeper(NamKook)
          My Lovely Alien (MinJoon)
          A Little Toxic (MinJoon)
          CUTY (MinJoon)

What does hiatus mean? I don't wanna look up in google because this is not my chromebook.

I published two books. The one which gets more votes is the one I'll continue while I'll unpublish the other.
          You might like them, MinJoon and Namkook.
          Please vote.