JRagan78

I spent 15 tears with a mentallyabusive asshole. Never marring him. Then I get married  and it only last for 4 years .. what a path what a life.. never again will I get in a relationship. Im done with love it only last for as long as the other person is interested in u. No one understands love. 

I never meantto hurt u. I thought if I stayed quiet u would  see i didn't want to fight but in the end ur using that to see me as u see me. Im sorry I couldn't  turn my back on my adult kids for u . But one day u will love someone  enough  to see u dont run and turn ur back on them. But until u understand  that kind of love .. im sorry u think I chose them over u. Bc I never never wanted to choose  sides .. I wanted a family  that figured it out together. A partner  to fight the world by my side. Now  its me against  the world.. but at least I have my boys. Bc they love me when u couldn't  anymore. Im sorry I wasnt enough  for u  in the end.  
          

Are you ok?

Trying something  new
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/406037132

Hardest part is not having you to come home too. 

I gave up every  one and everything  for you.  I put up with the fights and comments  day after day. And u walked away.
          
          I was alone my whole life until u and now im alone again. I gave you more love then I ever give anyone  and u left bc u had enough.. I didn't change fast enough  for u but I knew u needed time to change. 
          
          Funny how love works.. thanks for the memories.. bc im keeping  the good ones well u only remember  the bad.  

New story
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/394139906-shadows-of-misunderstanding

When the night turns dark 
          The demons come out to play
          My heart breaks from the sounds of yesterday
          All the clouds and rain can't hide my pain
          But it's not like anyone is around to see
          How lost I'll be. Bouncing from thought to thought.. probably not even caring how much the pain kills me. 
          
          When the night turns to light
          The demons go away
          My heart still broken but today there's a smile 
          On my face.
          The sun warms the sky
          All clouds and rain gone
          I work and live like 
          Night will  never come again
          Everything is fine,
          Everything is okay
          I hope you all have a wonderful day 

Did you or your partner write the Matthews series?

When you start to treat the lesser man as a king.. and the king as a lesser man.. you will understand we are all souls in human bodies