take all the time you ever need, your well being and overall health is the most important thing. i'm so damn sorry that you're going through so much right now and i know words are not enough but i wish that everything gets better for you soon and that if you ever need anything, anything at all, i'm always here for you. i hope you're doing much better and that you are well. i'm sorry you had to go through that, so damn much. i know how scary it is and how confusing everything is, but trust me when i say it gets better, even though right now it may not seem like it. your emotions are completely valid, anything that you're feeling.
your writing is amazing, don't stress about it. and don't feel bad about not writing as much as you want or if you feel that your work is not up to a standard that you wish it was. we are our own hardest critiques in everything that we do, so most of the time we judge ourselves too harsh that we blind ourselves from the talent we truly have. so don't worry about it and take all the time you ever need. we will be here when you come back. <3