Jacklin Kim

Baby, you need my hug, and I need yours too. So come closer, put your hands on my waist, and pull me near you.

تطوف حولها برائّه أبديه، لن تتشوه أبداً مثل براعم الربيع.

But why did you do this to me? I truly loved you. Did my love for you make you this way? I never expected all these words to come from you to me. Was I really a source of annoyance to you all this time? But why did you try to get close to me? Why did you try for me? Did you want to hurt me in the end? I am writing all this now with tears in my eyes. I feel something is suffocating me. I have lost everything. I used to tell you about my father who abuses me and about my family who hate me, and I told you that I am afraid of separation, but you left me too. Everything I was afraid of, you did now. Why? Do I deserve this? After all this love, do I deserve all this hurt? You were my source of security, and now my security is lost for the second time. 

Some people learn from a young age how to comfort and hold themselves together not because they are naturally strong but because no one was ever available to listen to their pain So they smile silence becomes their language and they hide their hurt deep inside as if it were a secret that must stay hidden They appear steady and capable on the outside standing tall but on the inside there is a constant war a struggle between a heart that wants to scream and a soul that has grown used to suppressing its pain....... 

You are far from me and with someone else, but have you forgotten what you said? You told me that you are mine. Tell her, too, that you are mine. Do not let the fires of my jealousy burn. Come closer to me, hold me in your arms, and say: "I am yours," so that my heart may find peace.

On September 8th at 4 a.m. I lost my cat. I loved her so much, but she left me. I couldn’t save her. I miss you, Katy. I hope you didn’t feel any pain when you died, but you were suffering so much. I’m sorry I couldn’t save you. . 
          
          

"I was with him under the rain when I heard the sound of thunder. I hugged him, laughed, and said, 'Thunder is beautiful; it sometimes stops my heart from fear.' He looked into my eyes and said, 'The thunder makes your heart stop often. What about me? When I look into your eyes, I feel like my heart will stop.' And then he kissed my eyes. I told him that a kiss on the eyes is only for farewell. He said, 'How can I leave you after kissing your eyes?. 

Why did you do that? No, don’t ask what you did  because you know why you’re doing it. Stop. Don’t justify yourself. Stop. I hate you

Come closer, tell me you’re mine, not hers, don’t let the fire in my heart ignite, I can’t control it.
          
          

You are mine, not hers, aren’t you? Please, say it. Don’t let the fire burn inside my heart  the fire I can’t control. Yes, I’m selfish, selfish because I love you this way… but say it.