I have a secret
I keep it buried inside me
It teases and taunts me
Strips me of pride
Just when I'm happy
Can finally see the sun
It awakens with vengeance 
Let's me know I'm not done
Always there in the back of my head
I just want to kill it
Make it dead
The power it has over me
Will surely one day break my soul
I try to forget it
Scream for it to go
I'm afraid if it leaves me
I'll be left alone
After all these years
It's all that I've known
Maybe deep down
I get pleasure from it's pain
Until I figure that out
Locked away it will stay