JakeIsBabyGirl

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I know I don’t go on here that much anymore and I mainly use it for venting so I’m sorry I’m advanced but I need to vent again, I know I sound ungrateful but I have no other way to get out my feelings, long story short I hate how I look, I’m highly suicidal, the only reason I don’t cut myself is because it’s against my religion and if my parents found out I’d be in huge trouble because they care more about religion than me, my parents hate me because I’m the oldest child and they wanted a son not a daughter for their oldest child, I have really bad depression,  my brother gets away with hitting me and putting his hands on my all the time because he’s a boy and cuz he’s autistic, I have a lot of problems with my social life, I met a dude in school last year I got a crush on him, but we were just friends, I got his number but never really detected him we only talked in person, I confessed and he rejected me because he “wanted to focus on himself” and he hasn’t talked to me since, he also keeps flirting with other girls which isn’t helping my confidence, I also REALLY hate how I look and my mom never let me get makeup so I was bullied for being the odd one out, she finally let me get makeup yesterday because my aunt offered to pay and said that she’d tell my grandma the shit my mom does  if my mom didn’t let me, and basically I didn’t get much, it was mostly skincare, I know my mom can do people’s eyebrows so I asked her to do mine and she told me no because it’s against our culture and it would make her look bad, I asked her if she really cared about me or just didn’t want herself to look bad and she said it was the second one, she also keeps making fun of the way I look and I’m scared to tell her about my issues because she’s really religious and she’d call me satanic for being suicidal or questioning my sexual and gender identity I just have a lot going on and I don’t know what to do

dough-flamingo12

@JakeIsBabyGirl gurl remember i love you. its alright to vent. you seem to be a great person, just in a horrible environment. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU SO BADDDDDD. but always remember we all love you:). I can relate a bit with you tbh. and i know it feels bad. i know its hard. but always remeber we love you. I WANNA HUG YOU COME HERE ALREADY
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sukisukidatssukii

@JakeIsBabyGirl I completely understand what your going through and  please don't apologize for venting. I hate it when my sister get everything she wants because shes the youngest, while I have ADHD, wrist problems, and eyesight problems too. Also as religious as my family is, they are completely stuck up and arrogant not letting me do normal teenage things because of it. My advice is try to keep to yourself as much as you can. Two word replies towards them, stay in your room, and talk to people who make you feel like your best self.
          	  Hope those help :)
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SpaceWaste33

Okay, that is a lot and tbh I really don’t know how to help when 80% of these people seem like absolute assholes. You maybe wanna pm me and we can talk about it some more? I’m always here if you need me and I’m so, so sorry things are going this downhill for you. 
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Sanj1slungc4nc3r

The amount of followers you have… 

Sanj1slungc4nc3r

IM SO CRAZY RN I HAVENT EVEN EAT BREAKFAST AND IM HYPER RHAHAKSKSILAA
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dough-flamingo12

gurl i read the vent. are you okay?? im sorry you are needing to go through all of that. I really just wish i could just hug you so badd. i love your comments in the zosan fanfics. i didn't expect someone this cheerful go thorugh this. i hope you're alright. rememeber we all love you<3

JakeIsBabyGirl

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I know I don’t go on here that much anymore and I mainly use it for venting so I’m sorry I’m advanced but I need to vent again, I know I sound ungrateful but I have no other way to get out my feelings, long story short I hate how I look, I’m highly suicidal, the only reason I don’t cut myself is because it’s against my religion and if my parents found out I’d be in huge trouble because they care more about religion than me, my parents hate me because I’m the oldest child and they wanted a son not a daughter for their oldest child, I have really bad depression,  my brother gets away with hitting me and putting his hands on my all the time because he’s a boy and cuz he’s autistic, I have a lot of problems with my social life, I met a dude in school last year I got a crush on him, but we were just friends, I got his number but never really detected him we only talked in person, I confessed and he rejected me because he “wanted to focus on himself” and he hasn’t talked to me since, he also keeps flirting with other girls which isn’t helping my confidence, I also REALLY hate how I look and my mom never let me get makeup so I was bullied for being the odd one out, she finally let me get makeup yesterday because my aunt offered to pay and said that she’d tell my grandma the shit my mom does  if my mom didn’t let me, and basically I didn’t get much, it was mostly skincare, I know my mom can do people’s eyebrows so I asked her to do mine and she told me no because it’s against our culture and it would make her look bad, I asked her if she really cared about me or just didn’t want herself to look bad and she said it was the second one, she also keeps making fun of the way I look and I’m scared to tell her about my issues because she’s really religious and she’d call me satanic for being suicidal or questioning my sexual and gender identity I just have a lot going on and I don’t know what to do

dough-flamingo12

@JakeIsBabyGirl gurl remember i love you. its alright to vent. you seem to be a great person, just in a horrible environment. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU SO BADDDDDD. but always remember we all love you:). I can relate a bit with you tbh. and i know it feels bad. i know its hard. but always remeber we love you. I WANNA HUG YOU COME HERE ALREADY
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sukisukidatssukii

@JakeIsBabyGirl I completely understand what your going through and  please don't apologize for venting. I hate it when my sister get everything she wants because shes the youngest, while I have ADHD, wrist problems, and eyesight problems too. Also as religious as my family is, they are completely stuck up and arrogant not letting me do normal teenage things because of it. My advice is try to keep to yourself as much as you can. Two word replies towards them, stay in your room, and talk to people who make you feel like your best self.
            Hope those help :)
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SpaceWaste33

Okay, that is a lot and tbh I really don’t know how to help when 80% of these people seem like absolute assholes. You maybe wanna pm me and we can talk about it some more? I’m always here if you need me and I’m so, so sorry things are going this downhill for you. 
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JakeIsBabyGirl

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Idk what to do rn I barely have any friends because I’m really socially anxious, I’m really depressed and kinda suicidal and very much questioning who I am as a person, but one of my friends (I’ll call him A) is a trans man and has gotten through many of these issues so I expected him to help me but instead he’s been telling me my issues aren’t valid and I’m over exaggerating, my best friend is also telling me that he talks shit about me behind my back and I’m too scared to go tell him anything and just keep acting like I don’t know and that nothings wrong even though I now know he blatantly hates me, I’m too scared to confront him especially since he introduced me to a lot of my friends and I’m scared I’ll lose them all if I say anything…

itsnotthatdeep435

Look at all these paragraphs 
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SpaceWaste33

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Tbh he doesn’t sound like a good friend at all. I know you probably don’t wanna do this but I’d unfriend the hell out of his ass. Yeah it’ll hurt now but keeping someone like that around is going to drag your mental health into the ground, and honestly sometimes you have to do what’s best for you. As for making friends, I don’t really know the best advice for that, but I guess you could just go join chat rooms and what not and try to find people with similar interests and hobbies as you. Hope you make it out of this situation though, I think I’ve been in similar situations to yours and I know from experience they really suck.
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JakeIsBabyGirl

@TheOGHolyDevilFandom thank you so much I’ll try to follow your advice as best as I can, I don’t wanna discredit someone and say their pretending to be trans for attention though, that’s just stupid considering that one of my problems with this person is that they refuse to acknowledge the fact that I’m question my gender identity and tell me it isn’t valid and that I’m just trying to get attention, but I will say, he does pull the transphobic card, A LOT, like people who don’t know him or the fact that he’s trans will call him a she and he’ll get so defensive and call them transphobic (which I can see why) but then he also constantly discredits, misgenders, and dead-names his OWN trans friends, and gets defensive when anyone brings it up, which I find weird because he’ll misgender one of our other chill friends who’s a trans dude, dead name him, and everything, and then look over it, but then when you bring it up he’ll get mad at you, and then when I told him I was questioning my gender identity he told me I wasn’t valid and doing it for attention said “I know your doing it for attention, you’ll always be a girl and I’ll call you that, you’ll never be valid like me or V (other chill trans man friend), that’s why I respect V’s pronouns and not your because we’re not doing it for attention” even tho he constantly misgenders and dead-names V
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JakeIsBabyGirl

HELP I GOT ON WATPAD FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A WHILE AND NOW I HAVE 100 NOTIFICATIONS LIKE HELP I WAS JUST TRYNA SEARCH UP TYLER THE CREATOR X A$AP ROCKY FANFICS IN PEACE

RobbieRockHard

@JakeIsBabyGirl Arizona I'm there rn actually lol
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JakeIsBabyGirl

@RobbieRockHard Oop sorry I was sleeping over at my cousins house so we could go to a family friends house (I was forced to go I hate all of em) but I hope you have a safe trip where u goin?
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JakeIsBabyGirl

My top artists on Spotify wrapped even though nobody cares:
          1. Katy Perry
          2. Lady Gaga
          3. Dua Lipa 
          4. Nicki Minaj
          5. Taylor Swift
          Im sorry but Lady Gaga and Katy Perry songs are perfect for imagining random fake scenarios and edits too, the others I don’t have to explain.

RobbieRockHard

@JakeIsBabyGirl I was looking at weird ass edits of Branch from The Trolls movies... People are simping for him-
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JakeIsBabyGirl

@RobbieRockHard I don’t blame u really, very it’s very imagine fake edits and scenarios while listening to-able
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