Mrs. Sim

GUYS I HAVE A "WIFE" RIGHT? LIKE SHES JUST LIKE ONE OF MY BFFS WHO I JOKINGLY CALL HER MY WIFE, AND THIS ONE KID WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW WE ARE "MARRIED" ASKED IF WE R DATING?!?!? HELLO I DON'T THINK I ACT THST GAY I JUST SAID I WAS GONNA HANG OUT WITH HER????? LIKE IM AN ALLY (IDK HOW TO SPELL) BUT IM NOT GAY FOR MY HOMEGIRL MYSELF?!?! AND THEN THIS KID PROCEDEDE TO ASK ME THE NEXT DAY "ARE YOU SURE YOUT AND THAT ASIAN GIRL(she's Filipino btw) AREN'T DATING" HELLO AND THEN HE SAID "YALL HAVE CHEMISTRY BC YOU ARE ALREADY FRIENDS" WTH WHAT GIVES OFF THE VIBE THAT I WANT TO DATE HER??????!!

My math professor bothers me because I can't do the tests when I want to, she could easily do that because it would be plus work for her but no she decides to make it forcefully home zoom so I have to have a zoom session with her when she can do it. This bothers me because I want to do it on weekends the week before the thing is due but no she makes us do it on Wednesday Thursday or Friday of week it's due and IT PISSES ME OFF. That week we also have a practice test due, and the ring it on her time I can do the tests until Thursday after my stuff at like 5:30 p.m. is when I can do it, and I DON'T preform my best then as I've forgotten it all because I did everything the week prior, and that I'm tired. I also have anxiety when talking on the phone so that doesn't fucking help, especially when I know she's looking at me too... . There's a practice test the week that there's the test as well so that could technically make me do better if I could do it previous to the test but I'm scared that I'm not going to be able to get it done before and practice so I remember, and knowing myself be lazy and not do it. This is why I normally do this before but again if I do then I don't get practice before the test, leading to why I don't do well. I wish this fuckass lady just used honerlock so that I could do the test on my own accord and do much better I hate her  (the worst thing is I know this lady used to let us do it on our own time but ofc she doesn't when I have her)

Recently I've been feeling like shit and sad and not being able to do my work properly and it's pmo and I dunno but I've been feeling like shit about myself and my ability to do things and I feel like I've been going downhill and it's like why now I KNOW I can do better but I just can't rn I can't do it I'm trying but It feels like it's not worth it and I should just quit, not KYMS but like just quit and not put effort into anything bc what's the point if I can't even do my potential when I'm trying

So it's approaching my birthday right? I was looking on Amazon bc yeh and I saw a Stanley was "delivered" and I was like who wants a Stanley and then I realized it's approaching my birthday and I realized that could be for me like I don't really want that and I don't know how to tell my parents... Oh well we'll see in a few days if that's actually for meI don't even really use my water bottle so...at least it's a carryable one, I hope they got it on like 50% discount bc otherwise I really don't want it like I'm trying to be appreciative and I feel bad bur I don't wanna be a fucking Stanley girl  

@Jakes_wife_01 OMGG THANK YOU SO MUCH BBY!!! ~♥~

tftf<3
          big multistan i see, we got smth in common

@Jakes_wife_01 NP DEAR ~♥~

@Jakes_wife_01 AWW NO PROBLEM DEAR! 
          PLS TAKE CARE!! 
          DON'T TAKE STRESS. 
          I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND YOU! 

@Jakes_wife_01 MISSED YOU

BBY ARE YOU ALIVE??