JakieFord

March 2020 Update:
          	
          	- I’m now 20 years old
          	- still alive!!
          	- still have mental and physical health issues, but am doing well, and everything is mostly under control rn
          	- quarantine is not a lot of fun
          	- I still write, though I usually avoid poetry because it reminds me of a hard time. But every so often I’ll randomly write like 6 poems and just kinda save em in my notes. Maybe I’ll share some on here again one day, or publish Last Words on kindle or something. You never know
          	- fallen in love and outta it. not dating rn and happy that way
          	- got coronavirus, it sucked, better now, no complications thankfully
          	- learned a new language since I’ve been on last
          	- soon will be getting a fern tattoo to represent my home and to honor someone
          	- graduated high school
          	- am now doing community college to get my 2 year degree
          	- because I chose to go community I’m paying my own way through college without difficulty, which is pretty neat
          	- moved to a new continent and back since I was last here. Life is nuts, y’all 
          	- I have some really solid friends now, who support me, don’t make me feel overwhelmed with emotional burden for them, and just are really great friends. It’s still new even though it’s been 2 and a half years since I met the first one, but it’s pretty great
          	- figured out a name I like
          	- my life isn’t perfect (and I’m still horrible at doing homework), but it feels manageable. I can imagine myself having a future now, and fully believe I do have one, and that it’ll be good. 
          	- haven’t self harmed in a very long time. with the ED I also am far into recovery and doing well with it. 
          	- miss y’all, I hope my poems still can manage to help whoever stumbles across them. 
          	Most importantly:
          	- I’m happy. 
          	- (and if not now, someday you will be too)

writing_heals

Im so glad you’re well ♡
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OXOXNIGHTMAREXOXO

@JakieFord that's great!
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GlennKoerner

@JakieFord Congrats on reaching 20 years old,
          	  Who knows what your future may hold?
          	  
          	  With people afraid of being dead,
          	  And all the problems that lie ahead,
          	  
          	  I hope you can see a reason to smile,
          	  And maybe a poem to compile.
          	  
          	  I hope isolation won’t drive you mad,
          	  And that this poem will make you glad.
          	  
          	  Although this poem has to end,
          	  Best wishes from a friend.
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JakieFord

March 2020 Update:
          
          - I’m now 20 years old
          - still alive!!
          - still have mental and physical health issues, but am doing well, and everything is mostly under control rn
          - quarantine is not a lot of fun
          - I still write, though I usually avoid poetry because it reminds me of a hard time. But every so often I’ll randomly write like 6 poems and just kinda save em in my notes. Maybe I’ll share some on here again one day, or publish Last Words on kindle or something. You never know
          - fallen in love and outta it. not dating rn and happy that way
          - got coronavirus, it sucked, better now, no complications thankfully
          - learned a new language since I’ve been on last
          - soon will be getting a fern tattoo to represent my home and to honor someone
          - graduated high school
          - am now doing community college to get my 2 year degree
          - because I chose to go community I’m paying my own way through college without difficulty, which is pretty neat
          - moved to a new continent and back since I was last here. Life is nuts, y’all 
          - I have some really solid friends now, who support me, don’t make me feel overwhelmed with emotional burden for them, and just are really great friends. It’s still new even though it’s been 2 and a half years since I met the first one, but it’s pretty great
          - figured out a name I like
          - my life isn’t perfect (and I’m still horrible at doing homework), but it feels manageable. I can imagine myself having a future now, and fully believe I do have one, and that it’ll be good. 
          - haven’t self harmed in a very long time. with the ED I also am far into recovery and doing well with it. 
          - miss y’all, I hope my poems still can manage to help whoever stumbles across them. 
          Most importantly:
          - I’m happy. 
          - (and if not now, someday you will be too)

writing_heals

Im so glad you’re well ♡
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OXOXNIGHTMAREXOXO

@JakieFord that's great!
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GlennKoerner

@JakieFord Congrats on reaching 20 years old,
            Who knows what your future may hold?
            
            With people afraid of being dead,
            And all the problems that lie ahead,
            
            I hope you can see a reason to smile,
            And maybe a poem to compile.
            
            I hope isolation won’t drive you mad,
            And that this poem will make you glad.
            
            Although this poem has to end,
            Best wishes from a friend.
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JakieFord

i'm trying to respond to missed messages in by inbox now, im not sure if i'll ever be "back" to be honest, but i figure that it's the very least i can do. for now, i'll just say this - depression still sucks, i still am not going to a doctor for it (bc i cant), but i'm figuring stuff out and have a much better handle of myself than i ever did before. i can't promise any responses, but feel free to come say hi or ask me stuff during the next bit of time (anywhere from the next 5 minutes to like an hour) that i'm on, and i'll try to get back to you. and most importantly, thank you all. i'm so proud of all of you who are still hanging in there. you're amazing.

carcinoDreamer

//POKES YOU
          
          //A LOT

carcinoDreamer

Victor, for most things- Ampy is just a nickname or what people call me in front of my parents  Either one is fine for here though
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JakieFord

Also, do you prefer Victor or Ampy? For on Wattpad, of course
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JakieFord

SHHH DONT CALL ME OUT LIKE THIS
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chswootwoot

Hey, you probably don't remember me, I read your book briefly in a time of sadness, and you ended up posting on my profile about how I'm not alone. I just wanted ive you an update and say that even though it was a while ago, whenever I'd see that post it would make me smile, and still does, and you just telling me that meant so much, saved me so many times from hurting. You made a big difference in my life, made me feel like I had someone, by posting that single thing. Don't stop being who you are, because you saved my life.