I met this guy during online classes.
We talked during a project and continued to stay after class just to talk.
We talked during lunch and sometimes after school.
We messaged each other over insta sometimes.
I would talk to my friends about him because he was a real good guy.
Amazing personality, Polite around adults, Funny and all that other good stuff..
After a few weeks of talking he asked me if I wanted to hang out at the mall.
But I invited two of my friends..
We made a group chat for all of us..
Talked for a while and stayed up too...
Then when we all finally went to the mall, I could sense that I was becoming a wheel..
One of my friends had brought her boyfriend and during the movie I closed my eyes and relaxed.
I wasn't asleep, but during that time I heard some stuff...
My other friend was seated next to him.
When the movie ended I immediately got up and walked out because I felt left out...
Skipping to the time my friends had to leave I was left with the guy who invited me..
We walked around, got something to eat, and went to play games..
It felt genuine..
I liked him, but I was never sure...
When the day was over and I was at home my friend had to talk to me about what was going on during the movie..
She was scared to tell me.
I told her I could never ever be mad at her nor would she lose me..
She told me that she started dating him the day before..
They never told me because she knew how I felt about him..
But I could never get mad..
I'm emotionally unavailable so I never thought my feelings towards him were genuine..
I felt hurt they never told me..
I was sad..
I cried that night, the next day, and still am..
I'm happy for them 100%.
But you never really get over one of your first crushes..
Sometimes I wish I never invited them, but I'm being selfish..
I'm the one fixing things, but why does no one ever do the same..?
I'm over it.
Anyways, just a reminder all fanfictions are discontinued.
