JanaeH

I’ve been seeing a lot of writers on booktok giving up on their dreams of being an author, and honestly… I can’t even blame them. First of all, you’re doing a HECK of a ton of work and hours writing your book for a very high chance of barely getting paid for it, or worse, not being able to get an agent nor publishing deal in the first place 
          
          Two, seems like they really want writers to have quite a lot of followers online and be able to constantly promote their books on TikTok and stuff which for me personally, ik I DON’T ALWAYS wanna post about my books everyday multiple times a day, I feel like all that marketing should be THEIR job. 
          
          Three, self publishing costs money if you wanna have a great chance at succeeding. All this stuff just isn’t worth it. I’m already in a position where I get paid to already do what I love even tho it’s not a lot but ya, I AM working on something rn. Idk if I’ll ever post it to Wattpad or a different site or app. I’m thinking of also doing one shots or just something while I’m writing this new book. All I gotta say is, if you’re really set on traditional or self publishing, go for it, but me personally, I like the control I have with serial fiction. I MIGHT try to see if there’s a better alternative than this but I’m not against traditional publishing if I was to get popular but still, not really the route I prefer for that little amount of money being offered to 99% of authors smh

I was thinking about how men be calling me ugly and how Nia’s looks are based off mine and how over the years, I’d get comments in the book that the reason people thought and called Nia ugly was cause she’s black and after when I did some research into black women who were also called ugly on TikTok or instagram or facebook or social media in general or even real life, I realized there was a pattern. Every woman with a majority of Afrocentric features were being called ugly here in America. The darker skin, wider noses, textured hair, etc… that’s when I realized yall were right. 
          
          I nor Nia was ugly, it’s just men do NOT like black women who look FULLY black with mainly Afrocentric FEATURES, cause why was it that all these women who had my features that are consider Afrocentric were considered ugly? Yeah, there is DEFINITELY a pattern and the black women I noticed were being called pretty and dismissing this fact all had one or more EUROCENTRIC features whether it was light skin, small noses, or silky hair or more etc smh
          
          Thank you guys for helping me to see that women like me aren’t even ugly. It’s just a featurism, texturism, colorism problem going on today regarding black women and why women with mainly Afrocentric features are being called ugly
          
          I wasn’t able to realize that nor knew anything about this until I did my own research but ya, yall ARE right. There IS a pattern regarding black women with mainly Afrocentric features being called ugly, so I’m gonna make that canon as to why so many people consider Nia ugly in the story most likely

Ok WOW! GUYS, be AWARE of what Wattpad is doing! They’re going around DELETING people’s stories and ERASING EVERYTHING they WROTE! Even though I wasn’t working on the story anymore, they COMPLETELY DELETED MY LIGHT IN YOU SD story with Rock Lee and them!!! Now I’m SCARED they’re gonna delete my MAIN FANFICS! Save your stories into some other type of document in case they try and DELETE YOUR STORIES

Hey guys, it’s come to my attention that some people are concerned about me not making animations of adult Naruto and Nia on Love in You and are worried that I’m supposedly “only” attracted to teenage Naruto. That is NOT true! I think THE LAST and BORUTO versions of Naruto are CUTE ASHK! 
          
          Yes, I liked Teenage Naruto when I myself was 16, but I am just as attracted to the grown versions of him! As for why I haven’t made any animation regarding his adult self… it’s simple… it’s cause the ai I use… won’t let me. Trust me, I tried MULTIPLE times to get it to create the Naruto from THE LAST but all it does is completely butcher him or just shows Shippuden version of him. Ai uses credits so I couldn’t keep trying over and over and over trying to get it right. 
          
          The ai just won’t do it and when I try to make it specific in the prompt or even used a reference, it keeps telling me it can’t produce a copyrighted character. Some reason, it’ll let me for Shippuden Naruto but NOT THE LAST Naruto! Idk about Boruto version. I haven’t tried that one bc obviously I’m not on the Boruto era yet in my fanfic lol but I WILL try if I ever do get to it! Trust!
          
          If you guys don’t mind, I can make ai generated art of THE LAST Naruto and Nia since apparently that works but that’ll probably take me a while to do since there’s a daily limit and each generation doesn’t always get the characters or photos right. But ya, that’s all I have to say regarding that whole situation. Trust me, I am VERY attracted to his adult self too! Otherwise, what’s the point of me having written past Shippuden if that were not the case lol

Hey guys, so I think there’s something wrong with Wattpad rn. I’m trying to update Reality of You but it won’t let me. Other people are having a hard time posting their chapters too! Unless they fix this issue, I can’t post anything for the time being unfortunately T-T

2.) But ya, I do NOT care if my haters think I’m obsessed with Naruto or that I’m crazy. I think if you get hooked on drugs, smoke, are a hoe and risking std’s, cheating and beating on your significant other or others in general, spending your time insulting people on social media who done NOTHING to you, YOU’RE the one that’s crazy. Sorry not sorry
          
          Me having a crush on a anime character is NOWHERE near as bad as participating in the things I mentioned above. If you do do any of those things, you’ll be in my prayers but trying to come at me for my anime crush and my cringey hobbies when some of yall are participating in THOSE ACTUAL crazy things is wild.
          
          Again, NOT apologizing for being who I am and loving the things I do! I’m NOT hurting ANYONE 
          

Also, for anyone who leaves hate comments or make fun of me bc of my feelings for Naruto, I DO NOT CARE! Yes, I realize I have a big crush on him, yes I know he’s not real, and yes know I’m bout to be 28 or 30 if you wanna round it up. The thing is, I’ve had a crush on him since IIIII was SIXTEEN. It’s WHY I started my story in the FIRST PLACE!
          
          As a teenager, I was subjected to INTENSE BULLYING. Naruto’s character and just the show in GENERAL, provided me a sense of peace or something I could escape to when my world was falling apart. Naruto himself was a huge reason, not the main reason, why I didn’t fall into complete darkness. He INSPIRED me to wanna be strong minded like him, follow my dreams or passions, and most importantly, LOVE MYSELF despite the bullying.
          
          His character REALLY helped me not to spiral into too deep of a depression or madness as a teenager and that’s why I appreciate him so much! I’m grateful for Kishimoto for creating such a BEAUTIFUL character like Naruto cause I just KNOW he saved thousands or MILLIONS of lives through his characters, world, and story. He helped save mine and that’s why I can’t get past my crush on him for the time being despite how old I am
          
          One day, IF I meet my future husband, I’m sure my feelings will melt away, but until then, I have feelings for Naruto. One day they might go away or if I don’t ever find someone real, they may not and I’ve learned to accept that. I can’t control the way I feel. And I’m NOT gonna apologize for my crush on Naruto despite people making fun of or feeling bad for me. I do not care

Hey guys, so I just wanted to say I know there’s a few of you who REALLY dislike me using AI for ANYTHING. While I respect your feelings, I’m sorry, but I am just NOT one of those AI haters. This may get some of you to unfollow but that’s fine. I post the things that I LOVE regardless if I have people to support me or not. 
          
          I would still be doing the most absolute cringey or corny anime or other stuff whether people hate me or not. I’ve been hated my WHOLE LIFE! The haters can’t hurt my feelings no more. I got sick of living to please other people and not being true to who I am
          
          I would STILL be writing or making vids of NaruNia or just whichever character I want to do so in future REGARDLESS if anyone read or viewed it. I LOVE who I am and my hobbies and I am DONE apologizing for investing in things I LOVE bc of other’s opinions. 
          
          I’m not saying none of you matter cause there are some really good readers or people out there, but I HAVE to put MYSELF FIRST! For those who stuck by me and continue to do so and allow me to be myself, THANK YOU ❤️

Hey guys, just wanted you to know, I’ve been trying to post more NaruNia content on my YouTube channel. They’re all made for fun and I’m sorry if I’m a very boring, nonchalant speaker T-T I’m not a really charismatic person nor am I doing this to try and make a living off it. My channel is for my hobbies towards NaruNia and my fanfics lol
          
          Also, I’ve been experimenting with AI and had it made some AMAZING NaruNia animations in the form of edits with CapCut! Now, if you don’t like AI, I understand but please don’t come at me with hate bc I personally don’t have a problem with it when it comes to making content for my hobbies! Without AI, everything I do for videos would nearly be IMPOSSIBLE for me to do or even pay for so that’s why I use it! I mean NaruNia ANIMATION?!! There’s NO WAY I’d EVER be able to have that done or paid for without AI, so ya, try to be understanding of my situation or at least keep the negative comments to yourself if you have any
          
          If not, I hope you’ll enjoy the content! Please head on over to my channel JanaeH with Nia as my profile pic lol

2) But ya, yall… even with book covers, if you want to be monetized, YOU’RE RESPONSIBLE FOR HAVING NO COPYRIGHT MATERIAL ON YOUR COVERS, which I am NOT paying a lot of money for lame stock photos that don’t ever have good pics of plus sized or black women or conventionally unattractive women. I can’t even find cute guys on those stock photos a lot of time for the covers T-T or even for the ACTUAL GOOD typography that costs like almost a hundred dollars each! it’s game over unfortunately. I’ll still write fanfic but with my situation, I HAVE to invest in more hobbies
          
          I MIGHT spend my money on making AI voiceovers for NaruNia on my youtube or invest in more fanart or just whatever will pass the time. I might try to find new ways to be creative on anime youtube channel but idk. Imma have to do a LOT of thinking lol 
          
          Thanks for reading everyone! Remember, Reality of You, just got a new chapter so pls go read, vote and comment! Have a blessed day!