Jared Kleinman

hey, you havent posted in a while. just checking in on you. happy halloween. :)

Yo, ugly bitch here, I just fucked up. Asked my Mother to buy me boxers even knowing she is VERY Against that. And now I'm on the verge of a panic attack plus my phone is even more broken so.

At this point, I'm so used to pointed attacks by my parents and I'm just to numb to cry anymore. Yesterday was the first time I've cried in weeks. Today I can't even cry. 

I'm so cold I'm warm. I'm laying in bed, eyes burning from the three break down sobbing sessions I just had. Ny body is numb and so is my mind. It would be nice to let go and not be a Disappointment to my family anymore but I hold on...why do I hold on?? What's the point?? What's my purpose?? I don't wanna just be the one who killed himself..... Fuck. 

https://youtu.be/ifiWucOzuTM
          https://youtu.be/dpRvhNXVzMU
          Two songs

Is anyone even active on my page anymore or should I just stop???

......does anyone else just have a deep hatred but also a deep love for, her me out, pants???? I can't stand wearing tight pants but I also loved them and when I'm alone I want to sit with just a blanket on my lap (AND UNDERWEAR YOU DIRTY CHILDREN!) but pants help me a little with Dysphoria..... (Mainly baggy pants) and they are so fucking hot like Whyyyyyyyy. Oh well. They hide scars well. 

Michael makes an entrance!!! *Le dramatic bursting through doors*

I did it y'all, I convinced my M to take me to Hot Topic! I got a My Chemical Romance shirt and some leather pants from a different store and I look fresh as fuck.

I'm trying to convince my Mom to take me to hot topic when we go shopping tomorrow and I can't wait, I need more guy like clothes but she won't let me so guess I'll do the next best thing! Just gotta stay positive.