I'm tired of giving my mother the benefit of the doubt. She says she doesn't want to live my life for me, but when I receive absolutely NO support from her, it hurts. When she goes to every one of my brother's games or my sister's barrel races, and I see no one in the crowd at MY award ceremonies, faking a smile suddenly seems a lot harder. Yeah, I don't really do sports like the rest of my family, I don't hunt, I don't ride horses as much, I study, and I write stories and poems! And I'm good! I have won many awards for them! But no one cares! NO ONE is there when I am upset over not winning! I have tried so hard to be noticed by my family! I work so hard in school, academics is all I have! I admit it! I'm not good in sports, in fact, I pretty much shít. I'm not good with horses, because unless I know them, and even then, they terrify me! Just, why won't you notice me?! Just because I don't do sports or anything with horses like the rest of my family? Because I am going to succeed where you failed? Why???